I'm not Venting - By venting.... (12/9/04)

Oh My God...

I want to vent... I want to Vent soooo bad.

Why can't I vent... this, this BLOG is my sanctuary. I should be able to vent!

But I can't. Why can't I?

Relationships. Now, not necessarily a 2D one. I hope It's not a 2D one... maybe it should be - a bit simpler in the long run. MAYBE it's the source of my 2d ranting... which I will fix the typos and finish. For now...

Now, I want to vent. I can't vent. Want too... Need Too almost... Can't.

A relationship. My God... I was spoiled. I'm trying to forget what that's like. I mean it's perfect - was perfect. I don't expect that... I never did before, I wont even ask that.. it would be insane.

Nice, but insane.

sacrifice.

*sighs*

I'm a thinker. Maybe that makes the difference between me and normal girls. I think.. make sure my problems are, well - really the problems. No sense on blowing off over the first emotion and thoughts and whatever, blowing up with the first, with you initial reaction - I mean slow down. Right? Think it through.. right?

I feel like I'm gonna be sick. So I'm not normal. So what?.. Exactly my point. So, I'm not Normal? What's normal, and if you can peg it as the classic girl friend bull shit - more so in this day of age. Why is that something so to have? But hey! What do I honestly know?

I'm just trying to not vent, by.. well venting.

Alright. So this relationship isn't to defined. It's all about the company anyways... SO I'm told.

Maybe it's time to begin defining.