Lifes' life

Wow, work has been busy. I'm about to start school, sort of a coraspondince, but it'll grant me an edge when I move up to classes maybe next year. Motorcycle Tech. Yeah, me go figure! And though there aren't titles, by choice, I've managed to get tangled up with someone pretty special. Great Guy. Didn't think I'd ever get to say that again. Feels Good. About to get back into Therapy, something to help keep me focused, I don't want to blow my job, school or realtionships/friendships, like I'm well known for doing. I'll have more soon, just finaly starting to fall into place. I'm back, but struggling.

i can't breathe

I just need to exist for a little while somehwere , where everything moves, and lives and continues, and does so with litte or no effort of my own to keep it that way.

Sometimes I hate

Ok hate is a strong word, but being me istn't always a blasty blast, actually it rarely is, still every now and then something really incredible comes ito my world and things get interesting... Still lets not forget I'm Irish, and like an old SNL skit clearly states, though the phrase is 'Luck Of The Irish' it's so raerly defins what kind of luck, for a nation of people almost wiped out by a patatoe fameon... more times then not it's bad luck... that and like I always say those who know me as black cat, have seen my luck in just such action...
So whats going on now??
Well i've always been the acception that proves the rule, nothing changes by that. Finally something I actually want turns up, and I'm to grounded in my way and reasons to actually even express the fact that I'll miss it when it's gone.

January

Hey, sorry I haven't been on much, not that anyone even reads this anymore, still I use this site to link some of my Myspace friends to an more deeper me....

Well not that I'm past december my 'shut down month' January is here and telling me to rise a shine again. And you know what that means, another Birthday, 23, and nother year to figure it all out.

So the FL and the Jersy thing fell through, no big surprise I guess... i'm still writting like crazy whenever I can, but work is really drowning me here. In march I'm going to be sitting down with some people trying to figure things out and get some plans together, I'm looking at the career courses out in Kilgore CC, even Nursing.... Seriously for what it would have cost me a year ago to become a Medical Asst. in 8 months, just about pays for my 2 years out here and I walk away with a full RN if I'm up for the challenge... God sent me out to Henderson for a reason, I might have to take that or a similar challeng.
Life is pretty much hell right now, but I'm pulling it together, or at least looking at a starting too. And it's 07' and odd year, I always do so much better on the odds I have a great hope for what lays ahead of me, but I am scared.

It's Strange, I'll never stop writting or when I have a computer working again, one of my own I mean, I'll never stop the presuit of a published career, but I want to spend these next 2 maybe 3 years helping myself, and if I can manage that much, I want to help others, be it a hospital here in east texas, or some remote part of the world where some small group of souls really need aide, I want to either Inspire, Inlighten or Help..... maybe this is the right course.

Trying to take life seriously

I'm still alive...

I actually start way to many of my posts that way.

So the democrats have taken the house(s') probably not a bad thing at all. Now I know this means a world of vetoes ahead, but honestly slowing down the workings of the presidential machine is again probably not a bad thing. I can't figure out how Rick Perry is our governor, but confusion is the price I pay for taking a backseat where politics are concerned over the past 2 years. Life is sort of once again stable, and I look at this coming year as a clean slate to get my feet wet again.

As far as my life.. Can't seem to locate a school that offers the programs I'm supposedly interested in.. Could be God's way of allowing me to actually try and do something that matters with my life... Seriously all I ask is that my life meets one of the following three - 1) I Help people 2)I entertain people or 3) I inspire people. Not even asking for my life path to meet 2 out of 3, just one. I can write from anywhere in the world, it's what I do when I'm not writing that's giving me so much trouble.
My personal life where friends are concerned is a bit rocky. But I'm sure it will pull through on all ends.. I hope.
Love Life.... Non existent, by choice of course. As of this moment I'm content giggling at the fact that Shelby of Sound and Fury sat next to me during the show for a brief moment. Don't knock it, until you check out his pictures, most girls would giggle too.
In writing, due to the fact I've encountered a few road blocks in both the thriller and the comedy I'm working on, I've began work on the first draft of the second edition to my Pirate soon to be saga. And I'm actually scratching down some article ideas that I'll be submitting different places with hope over the next year.

Whatever Tomorrow Brings...
well you know the rest....

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So I think I have just about everyone on board at my work, The theme for Halloween is Pirates. Some of us are going with a gangstar twist, some are going with a just a hat twist, me I'm going for a more traditional look.
If everything takes place according to plan, I'll post some pictures.

Arrggh.

My mom's site for her company the w.h.o. - Is giving me hell. I think, not now, but god, maybe in the next month i'm might break it down and start from scratch... oy.. Or I might hand it all over to my sister. Her work is a hell of allot better then mine and talent is talent and stress is stress, stress I don't need or really want right now. My life right now is simple, and I like that. Really not interested in changing that right now.

Now if only I can stop narriating my life with my inside voice and put some ink to paper, my life will be that much more fulfilled.

I have big plans for the first weekend of November, nothing but fun, fun and more fun. And there will be pictures from that.

moraly henderson

So I'm not sure if Henderson inspired the show Moral Oral, but I'm almost willing to bet money of the chance that it did. Something about this town, it draws you in and snaggs ya down. And all while reciting bible verses.

Still I've made some friends, and I know fun is only a short drive away on a Wedsenday night :P

So last night was fun, I've just started watching Scrubs, and it was an eppisode with Brendan Fraiser, and it's the one where he's in the entire eppisode, but at the end you discover, somewhere during the eppisode he's died and during the second half it's really his ghost floating about, one only Dr. Cox, the characters best buddy and or brother (couldn't really tell) can comunicate with. Needless to say after the fact that I've already had arrived at the end of a rality warping day to begin with, that show pushed my one glass of wine into a every last drop that bottel of Massina Hoff held kind of night.

I mean you would think the summers would really be the hardest time for me, but nope fall and winter are really really my downer months.

It's strange, because I feel like I'm doing alright in Henderson, but still failing at the 'Life' Thing, and even though I do not in any way understand the way my life has turned out and everything thta has happened in the corse of my 22 years soon to be 23 completed years on earth, I don't understand any of it, but I do accept it and I'm trying to work with it. Despite the fact that I am terrified of trodgue any path to far, the fear that it'll be another life cut short by something disatress. It's really no way to live, and yet it is exactly how I'm living now.

It'll be alright if I just keep focusing in on my work and my writtings.