Yesterday was a terrible day at work. The 'company' and I use that term very loosely! The company I work for has pretty much destroyed the moral of about half their workers, one of which being me. And yesterday out of a spite-filled revenge energy, I performed terribly on the job. Just happened to be the same day I get Mystery Shopped for the first time.
One of my two managers comes to confront both me and my coworker on this, each one of us taken to the back room for a one on one meeting. The one left behind, feeling certain the other, if not both of us were about to be fired.
Well since I was the second one to go have the '5 minute meeting' I kind of knew what I was getting into. And I wasn't about to back down, Not after the whirl wind day I had just pulled myself through. After my manager had said what they wanted to say, I apologized, but then took the meeting into a different course. Asking, with the exception of that day, had I angered either of my superiors? Had I said something, or not said something, that may have lead to the cause of my hours being so drastic cut over the past two weeks?? (all true, part of why our moral was so low) I brought the books to my manager and showed how the schedule was very off balanced, and even went as far to say, combining this with the pay day confusions as of late, well it's just really hurt our moral. I said.... And I added how I was going to bring it up at the meeting, since it wasn't only me, but a handful of others with the same problem.
Somehow, by the end of this 'five minute meeting' I was somewhat forgiven for my performance for the day and not only did I go from 15 short hours but to 28 and, one of my coworkers had his hours surprisingly doubled as well.
It feels good to be so good....
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Friday, November 25, 2005
Spell Check has returned!
I enjoyed a very good 'no sugar' added meal yesterday. And drank way to much wine! Bringing back the old rule, I'm only an alcoholic when I drink - It's like I get tipsy and don't know when to stop. So gonna lay off just about everything liquor related over the next month, try and really limit my self over Christmas - I really think it's just the wine glass that I have trouble putting down. Perhaps rum would be a better drink.. I've only had one bad morning after a night of rum. A lesson learned and all the others have been great. Maybe that's the key. Not entirely a bad thought. Because a friend of mine says she keeps her wits about her with rum, maybe I'm about the same way. - Oh Well, not that it really matters. I drink a hell of allot less then I used to, maybe once a month, twice if an occasion calls for it. Mostly due to only working 20 hours or less each week.... I have to find a full time job.
I also have to buckle down, rewrite the 2 chapters I lost. Finish the damn first draft! If I hurry up and get these 2 behind me, I think I can finally have the first draft of my first children's/young adult book finished in 6 more chapters which I can probably have done by new year! And then all I have to do is Lock it up in drawer for about three months. Take it out and start working on the Second Draft. - I think I just figured out what my New Years Resolution is for 2006! Reaching the 3rd Draft on this book, and at least starting the second book. I have an outline for at least three I believe. Have all the character paths se out. The adventures are a bit rough, but in time it'll all smooth out.As soon as I get that third draft done I can also begin hounding publishers and saving up money if I actually have to self publish, so I guess my other goal is to go through all of my old note books, until I find the one with all my writers notes, or it'll be another 700 dollars in courses! Looks like I do have a busy year ahead!
I also have to buckle down, rewrite the 2 chapters I lost. Finish the damn first draft! If I hurry up and get these 2 behind me, I think I can finally have the first draft of my first children's/young adult book finished in 6 more chapters which I can probably have done by new year! And then all I have to do is Lock it up in drawer for about three months. Take it out and start working on the Second Draft. - I think I just figured out what my New Years Resolution is for 2006! Reaching the 3rd Draft on this book, and at least starting the second book. I have an outline for at least three I believe. Have all the character paths se out. The adventures are a bit rough, but in time it'll all smooth out.As soon as I get that third draft done I can also begin hounding publishers and saving up money if I actually have to self publish, so I guess my other goal is to go through all of my old note books, until I find the one with all my writers notes, or it'll be another 700 dollars in courses! Looks like I do have a busy year ahead!
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Spell Check Has Vanished.. try and stay with me!
It was brought to my attention that i haven't written lately. (You know who you are :P) I appreciate the heads up.
The truth is, I haven't been on here, because I've been busy writing else where.. and no I don't mean my other blog the 1up (the game world through the eyes of a wanna be gamer) But rather working on both my Pirate Story and my (for reasons unknown to me) old comic book line, that I previously gave 5 years of my life to, why it now decides to suck my of whatever creative talent I have left, is unknown to me ... but a muse is a muse.
I also think I'm taking a turn to being more of a Carrie. All this writing and analyzing and myabe a Mr. Big of sorts peeking out from around the corner.
As well I also have a hellofa Harry Potter and the Goblet Of Fire review working around in my head. Expect that tomorrow or Monday. All I can say for now, is it's like invasion of the Bulgarians (sp?). And I have a few things to say about my day out and Ren Fest.
I also now work for Hot Topic aswell as the other 3 stores. And man, more on that later. This is just a heads up on things to come.
The truth is, I haven't been on here, because I've been busy writing else where.. and no I don't mean my other blog the 1up (the game world through the eyes of a wanna be gamer) But rather working on both my Pirate Story and my (for reasons unknown to me) old comic book line, that I previously gave 5 years of my life to, why it now decides to suck my of whatever creative talent I have left, is unknown to me ... but a muse is a muse.
I also think I'm taking a turn to being more of a Carrie. All this writing and analyzing and myabe a Mr. Big of sorts peeking out from around the corner.
As well I also have a hellofa Harry Potter and the Goblet Of Fire review working around in my head. Expect that tomorrow or Monday. All I can say for now, is it's like invasion of the Bulgarians (sp?). And I have a few things to say about my day out and Ren Fest.
I also now work for Hot Topic aswell as the other 3 stores. And man, more on that later. This is just a heads up on things to come.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Whatever Tomorrow Brings, Spiral Out, Wave On
I'm looking at four pictures tonight and thinking about five pictures. Nikole, Cindy (Jonesy) and I were all sitting around digging through old picture boxes in search of not only our Younger Years, but the younger years of Russell and James and the rest of his crew and came across a small treasure I believed to be lost forever. A small folder with pictures taken by Russell in it. I don't have a scanner but I'll go ahead and describe the five pictures.
The first picture I'm looking at is of Cindy and I inside The Black Pearl (passed around pick up truck). Our hair styles are messy, our clothing casual, and the flash was just to bright. Out in the K-Mart parking lot. I'm leaning against Cindy, both of us facing the camera. She has her Tongue out licking the side of my forehead (eek!). I like this picture for two reasons. One, because it was a golden moment. Our first double date with Her and James and Russell and I, it's the only picture I have of us - not taken at her wedding. John was still a promising young hope inside her womb, and no matter how stupid we looked, we would never be more beautiful then we were at that moment, because our dreams had come true - we had both found happiness and that night we were all together. The second reason is because it reminds me of another picture, one I don't have right infront of me, but It's one of Russell and the 'Alpha Pirate' - J.S. Standing next to each other.. One with their tongue out and one with that look on their face. Practically brothers in a moment they would probably never forget. One of my favored pics of Russell even because it reminds me of Cindy and I in many ways.
The next photo is of James , down on the ground, same parking lot, same night. tie'ing a pulling rope up to the pearl. That night he was Commodore James - as we jokingly called him. He instead on the fact he would not let the night end without towing the pearl, with his own vessel ( ford pick up truck). Cindy and I watched that night as James in his 'Ship' pulled Russell in his. And we both stood their wondering how long it would take before the recked one or the other.
The next one, is of me sitting on my bed. In my room - one of the few pictures that were taken in my room before we repainted my house for quick sale. My room when it was still mine. Me on my bed, in my 'Pirate chasing Booty' baseball shirt, 120 pounds and never happier with my life. Loved my job.. Loved my guy... Loved my body.. Loved my talents... Loved my mind... Loved everything about me and all I had to look forward too... No truer words ever spoken. That night the unthinkable happened, Russell told me he loved me. And I said I loved him.. I don't think anyone ever thought he'd actually say it first.....
The final picture, when I first saw it, I thought it was a picture of Russell and his ex Locking lips... Until I recognized my Grandmothers doll in the background.. My book case.. My wall... Me! A picture of him and eyes in a messy looking but true kiss, Words can not describe the emotions that brings up in me.
It's been a long hard year and more. I miss him and I'm actually finally healing myself again. Taking someone's advice.. Be Better. I know now there is a possibility I may never have that again with anyone else.. I may never even have half of that with anyone else.. but That's ok. I had it at one time - a great deal of people can't even make that claim. I don't want to spend the rest of my life with out love - but even if I do, at least I know once in my life I was so lucky to have lived greatly and loved greatly - no matter how great the loss. I was blessed if only for just over a month.
The first picture I'm looking at is of Cindy and I inside The Black Pearl (passed around pick up truck). Our hair styles are messy, our clothing casual, and the flash was just to bright. Out in the K-Mart parking lot. I'm leaning against Cindy, both of us facing the camera. She has her Tongue out licking the side of my forehead (eek!). I like this picture for two reasons. One, because it was a golden moment. Our first double date with Her and James and Russell and I, it's the only picture I have of us - not taken at her wedding. John was still a promising young hope inside her womb, and no matter how stupid we looked, we would never be more beautiful then we were at that moment, because our dreams had come true - we had both found happiness and that night we were all together. The second reason is because it reminds me of another picture, one I don't have right infront of me, but It's one of Russell and the 'Alpha Pirate' - J.S. Standing next to each other.. One with their tongue out and one with that look on their face. Practically brothers in a moment they would probably never forget. One of my favored pics of Russell even because it reminds me of Cindy and I in many ways.
The next photo is of James , down on the ground, same parking lot, same night. tie'ing a pulling rope up to the pearl. That night he was Commodore James - as we jokingly called him. He instead on the fact he would not let the night end without towing the pearl, with his own vessel ( ford pick up truck). Cindy and I watched that night as James in his 'Ship' pulled Russell in his. And we both stood their wondering how long it would take before the recked one or the other.
The next one, is of me sitting on my bed. In my room - one of the few pictures that were taken in my room before we repainted my house for quick sale. My room when it was still mine. Me on my bed, in my 'Pirate chasing Booty' baseball shirt, 120 pounds and never happier with my life. Loved my job.. Loved my guy... Loved my body.. Loved my talents... Loved my mind... Loved everything about me and all I had to look forward too... No truer words ever spoken. That night the unthinkable happened, Russell told me he loved me. And I said I loved him.. I don't think anyone ever thought he'd actually say it first.....
The final picture, when I first saw it, I thought it was a picture of Russell and his ex Locking lips... Until I recognized my Grandmothers doll in the background.. My book case.. My wall... Me! A picture of him and eyes in a messy looking but true kiss, Words can not describe the emotions that brings up in me.
It's been a long hard year and more. I miss him and I'm actually finally healing myself again. Taking someone's advice.. Be Better. I know now there is a possibility I may never have that again with anyone else.. I may never even have half of that with anyone else.. but That's ok. I had it at one time - a great deal of people can't even make that claim. I don't want to spend the rest of my life with out love - but even if I do, at least I know once in my life I was so lucky to have lived greatly and loved greatly - no matter how great the loss. I was blessed if only for just over a month.
Monday, November 07, 2005
I'm not sure if I should be happy about the following
| This Is My Life, Rated | |
| Life: |  6.8 |
| Mind: | 7.1 |
| Body: | 7 |
| Spirit: |  8.3 |
| Friends/Family: |  5.6 |
| Love: |  1.4 |
| Finance: |  4.5 |
| Take the Rate My Life Quiz | |
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Putting the OY! In Boys!
The theme for this week has been all about the Boys.
So lets review!
Ya'll know about the 2 Boys who occupy my thought.. Mister Mystery and the cute cowboy I'll never see again. And it's while I'm so busy thinking about them that, that time of the month rolls around and Mr. Would-be-perfect-if-not-a-Scorpio, pops up again, right on our strange little schedule. He wants to meet up mid month, which is so unlike us! Meanwhile - Flashing Forward to one of my Online hotties, trying to get to know him. He's slowly stopped thinking of me as a girl and start thinking of me as Phoenix. Which means he's more comfortable with me and is beginning to trust me more. But is being JUST Phoenix the same thing as being JUST friends? Not that it matters, he wants a girl who doesn't drink, who doesn't want kids - So Aries of him. And finding time to keep up with my Navy Boy is like finding ways not to laugh at those lil' bellbottoms. Plus some new guy - totally friend material has invited me and anyone I know to some BigToDo down at some club in down town - Could be Fun, Wanna Come? Drop me a line before the 24 of November for more info.
All I know is if I hear "Iris", "Sunday Morning", "In The Air Tonight", "Out Of The Blue", or "Tears in Heaven" one more time I just might break down and really lose my job. Curse You Sunny 99.1!
To make matters worse a guy from 2 stores down came into tonight to buy a New England, Van Gogh, and Oriental Seas calendar. With a Love for the north in the fall, and great taste in art - Now if he turns out to be a Red Sox fan I might just ask him to marry me on the spot. LOL. And the UPS guy ignores me one day, bites my head off the next and flirts with me the next - He has to be a Cancer or I'm in for a fun 2 Months!
So lets review!
Ya'll know about the 2 Boys who occupy my thought.. Mister Mystery and the cute cowboy I'll never see again. And it's while I'm so busy thinking about them that, that time of the month rolls around and Mr. Would-be-perfect-if-not-a-Scorpio, pops up again, right on our strange little schedule. He wants to meet up mid month, which is so unlike us! Meanwhile - Flashing Forward to one of my Online hotties, trying to get to know him. He's slowly stopped thinking of me as a girl and start thinking of me as Phoenix. Which means he's more comfortable with me and is beginning to trust me more. But is being JUST Phoenix the same thing as being JUST friends? Not that it matters, he wants a girl who doesn't drink, who doesn't want kids - So Aries of him. And finding time to keep up with my Navy Boy is like finding ways not to laugh at those lil' bellbottoms. Plus some new guy - totally friend material has invited me and anyone I know to some BigToDo down at some club in down town - Could be Fun, Wanna Come? Drop me a line before the 24 of November for more info.
All I know is if I hear "Iris", "Sunday Morning", "In The Air Tonight", "Out Of The Blue", or "Tears in Heaven" one more time I just might break down and really lose my job. Curse You Sunny 99.1!
To make matters worse a guy from 2 stores down came into tonight to buy a New England, Van Gogh, and Oriental Seas calendar. With a Love for the north in the fall, and great taste in art - Now if he turns out to be a Red Sox fan I might just ask him to marry me on the spot. LOL. And the UPS guy ignores me one day, bites my head off the next and flirts with me the next - He has to be a Cancer or I'm in for a fun 2 Months!
Pissing the world off one person at a time...
I found my self again today in a store for several hours on end, a store that celebrates individuality month by month, week by week or day by day. Complete with a rather large selection of "Lets make fun of Bush" Calendars and not one "Crazy Liberals" calendar...Now, I'm not totally ignorant to the great big World around me, I know it's not called the liberal arts for nothing, lol, just remind me what state is this again? And it's not like you could say "Well if Bush wasn't such a 'Wizard of Words'(all sarcastically) there wouldn't be so many." Ya'll are probably right, What we really needed was a 'Master Inventor' like Gore. Or a man like Kerry, who can't please everyone all of the time, but if you give him 2 seconds! I'm not saying Bush is good, Not saying he's Bad. Was he Ideal? No, but I bet many would agree our other choices were either. Damned if we do, Damned if we don't - So can we save future debates for, oh I don't know - The Future?? Surprisingly I found a more common thread amongst me and my more left leaning friends - John McKane at one point was the man of the hour for all of our hours all once upon a time.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Just a bit of fun...
What Outlaw Star Character Are You?
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What is Your Outlaw Star Personality Disorder?
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What Yu-Gi-Oh Duelist Are You?
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What Outlaw Star Character Are You?
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And a Bit more... I don't actually agree with most of it...
What is Your Outlaw Star Personality Disorder?
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What Yu-Gi-Oh Duelist Are You?
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
I'm going to regret this later...
"News has it your kind of a slut."
"Well, I'm no prude, but I wouldn't jump straight to slut."
"So your not a slut... and your not a prude - Then what are you?"
"Well I don't know - Can't there be a middle ground?"
"Well Ah, basically you could say your a girl who sees what she wants a takes it."
"That isn't what I had in mind, but yeah."
That's a conversation I had with one of the cowboys (not the cute one) over the summer.
Watching an episode of Sex in the City last night - The romantically challenged or Sluts episode. Made me think back to that conversation above. I'm younger then some of my friends and older then the others and have had more - er' - relations then all of them put together. And what exactly dose this say about me? Well lets review - out of all my relations, I said I loved over half, in all truths I actually loved only a quarter, thought I could honestly love the other quarter and yeah, one was a three nights stand. I was always safe about everything. So does that last statement say I'm easy, or Just unlucky in love? I've been at this since I was 16, and a part of me wonders if I'm destined to end up 40 with 40 - though to be truly honest, I hope to be with Mr. Right and with my 2.3 kids and happily on my way through a modern day happily ever after, trying not to become another statistic. Part of my misses the days when I could relate to a younger Samantha.. Part of me just wants to be more like Charlotte and I'm turning out more and more like Miranda, when I really should be happy to end up as a Carrie... oy! Although I'm not the naive child I used to be, I hope the 'Next' one might be the last, or at least I'm trying not to let my numbers reach the doubles - if you know what I mean. So I've had a few more then some and allot less then many more, is that any reason to burn me at the stake?
"Well, I'm no prude, but I wouldn't jump straight to slut."
"So your not a slut... and your not a prude - Then what are you?"
"Well I don't know - Can't there be a middle ground?"
"Well Ah, basically you could say your a girl who sees what she wants a takes it."
"That isn't what I had in mind, but yeah."
That's a conversation I had with one of the cowboys (not the cute one) over the summer.
Watching an episode of Sex in the City last night - The romantically challenged or Sluts episode. Made me think back to that conversation above. I'm younger then some of my friends and older then the others and have had more - er' - relations then all of them put together. And what exactly dose this say about me? Well lets review - out of all my relations, I said I loved over half, in all truths I actually loved only a quarter, thought I could honestly love the other quarter and yeah, one was a three nights stand. I was always safe about everything. So does that last statement say I'm easy, or Just unlucky in love? I've been at this since I was 16, and a part of me wonders if I'm destined to end up 40 with 40 - though to be truly honest, I hope to be with Mr. Right and with my 2.3 kids and happily on my way through a modern day happily ever after, trying not to become another statistic. Part of my misses the days when I could relate to a younger Samantha.. Part of me just wants to be more like Charlotte and I'm turning out more and more like Miranda, when I really should be happy to end up as a Carrie... oy! Although I'm not the naive child I used to be, I hope the 'Next' one might be the last, or at least I'm trying not to let my numbers reach the doubles - if you know what I mean. So I've had a few more then some and allot less then many more, is that any reason to burn me at the stake?
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