2005 ( almost here )

So the links don't work...
I'm stuck with a haircut I hate...
My love life is a roller coaster, and not in the best of term....
I'm not losing the weight as well as I had hoped....
Job is good, but I missed work today, because I never speak up when i should and sometimes when we are unselfish, in the presence of those who are very selfish, in some sick and twisted way, we become far more selfish then they...
Oh, and this web/blog/site thingy sucks.. not at all as I had intended it to be. So If I Don't Have It Up To Speed by say.. the end of March, then it's bye bye blog for this girl.
In the mean time back to me.

I know I haven't been posting much, but here's something to clear my head and bring some of us to a decent speed.A few weeks back I walked into Comic Book Orphanage.. first time since ... wow I think May? The guys who run it are great, had everything still on hold and, yes despite the large sum, I should have it off by the end of February. Just have to get the Pearl, finally up to speed. I took Donovan with me.. and well as far as all that is going, well more a bit later in the post. Anyways it felt good to go back to the shop. I think I've been going to them for like 5 years now? need to start going again every week like I used to it. It's fun, and I get to walk around for a few hours, looking at the other shops in the center, and it clears a girl’s head. Besides, I have very few places I can go anymore, where there are always at least 2 smiles to greet me.

Job is great. I hope I still have one tomorrow. I mean they are flexible, and it's just a cool.. yet some what shady place to work for, but not like that's new for me. It's also close to some schools.. yeah, still thinking about it. I feel like I have no real drive. I mean you would think the idea of a better career and life would be enough, but ya'll know me, I need a reason - and currently, I really don't have that 'reason'. I mean it usually takes someone I care about, who cares that much about me. Or cares that 'way' about me. Oh well.. one day I'll have that reason, or I'll snap out of it.. or whatever.

Family life, is allot like a post card life. Sorry about that to any family that may be reading this. I aim to help recover some of my family closeness after I finally move out and not living between places and struggling to beat traffic, all the f***ing time.

Love life? Oh, my. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. And of course with that said, obviously the 'why' I'm doing it slips me from time to time. I'll be twenty-one on the above date ( jan 19 ) at which time, I need to join a gym, after all October is coming again. Find a bar.. or learn to love clubbing. Either way, I need a social life I can stand in alone. I need a circle and I need one fast. Mardi Gras is coming. DJ, likes to celebrate from balconies.. geee! Can't Imagine why... And I, welll it would be my first year without the family.. I'll do my best not to end up as another Girls Gone Wild after thought. And then there is Rodeo Houston. DJ, hate concerts and large crowds... never mind he's at a party right now at this very moment. I'm here alone, because I have work.. and even though I don’t understand it, but something about attention he needs, that he can't get when I'm near.. or well something less screwed up sounding then that. Seriously folks, I'm not upset. I'm a drag.. well I'm F***ing top notch, goddess of the night in my world, Smoking diva, but in his world, his circle... not so much. So I understand, and when I'm old enough to actually order my own drinks.. in just a few short weeks, I'll be more then happy to party at night, we'd be the perfect couple... well accept for the fact, it may be at different parties. Oh Well.. Anyone who says I'm not a hard one to hold has never dated me. So anyways, I'm in the market as it were, for some Mardi Gras and Rodeo Boys and Girls, to hang with. Because I live for music, and I have no interest, of standing on a balcony-watching girls 'compete' for beads, when I can In the crowd, ally way or bar - earning my own.

The best thing ever? Or the sweetest thing about my birthday this year? Though it may fall on a Wed. It's still the day after pay day. And I can work with a hangover >:]

So G'Nite BOYS and girls.

Whatever Tomorrow Brings... (and oh the possibilities) Spiral Out... (I fully intend too) Wave On.... ( bring it on...)