Oh My God! Best Weekend of September, I mean Hands down. .... Ok so I am going to see the Steven Lynch and Mitch Hedgeberg (sp?) show this Thursday - but that's technically still the week, so I can justly say that this has been the best weekend in September...
Friday night I went out, poking along the cement seas of Houston with DJ/Donovan with honestly nothing better to do. Then about 10:00 o'clock I get a call from Jonesyand suddenly worrying what movie to rent at the video store just didn't hold my interest. So he and I jump in The Pearl (which has new tires BTW) and head off to meet up with Jonesy, I think we only hung out for about 2 hours, but it's been a while and :] I had such a good time, Laughing and talking and laughing and .. well you get it. It was the first time DJ ever sat down with both Jonesyand I and well - He made it out alive, no more emotionally F****d up then he was before. No long term damage from the exposure if any :].
The SATURDAY! I spent all day Saturday in College Station - yes, Aggie Country. I know,now your probably asking, Oh my God - Why? Well Thursday, DJ, surprised me with 2 tickets to see Pat Green, as the Top Biller for the AGG KickOff. I've never been so close to the stage - well as far as Pat Green shows go, I mean anyone who's been to the Rodeo knows that deep down inside, there really are no good seats, there are better seats, but no real good seats. I mean I could see his facial expressions with out a giant back drop screen. He went on after 3 other performers - we arrived early, standing room only, but you still want good 'seats'. I think he must have played for like 3 Hours at least. I even left the show early - due to the fact poor DJ, who is allot of things, but a Pat Green Fan, is not one of them. Looked like he was about to either lose his mind, which isn't good for anyone, or fall asleep and I honestly didn't know the way home, so I surffice with the 2 to 2-in-a-half hours of pure Pat Green Texas Music and headed on home. I'm sure I missed SouthBound 35 and Wave On Wave - did that on purpose. And there is a slim chance I missed Dancehall Dreamer, which is probably my second if not tied for first, favorite Pat Green - hell Favorite Song ever, but he already played so many other older songs, So I'm just going to pretend I didn't miss it and smile along. At the show I sang my heart out like everyone else. The only song I didn't know all the words too, was one of his up coming album "Lucky One" or "The Lucky Ones" - due out October 19th, BTW - so no one else did either :P
All I can Really say now is Pat Green Rocks and THANK YOU!! DONOVAN (dj) I really needed that, and I so owe you one.
Sunday night wound down to Sleeping all day and Invader Zim (second season) and Pizza! I for one voted for Tacos. But Oh such Tacos, they would not give. So I settled for Pizza and Flat Coke. While laughing and trying not to prick my fingers with a damn sewing needle while securing Ger Patches onto DJ's Tragdor, hoody.
Outside of that - I'm trying to figure out, now that I am being forced to Camp out at the Renaissance Festival at least one weekend, which one it should be and why and what to bring and all that other good stuff. Honestly the entire idea freaks me out. At least the thought of the First Weekend - The Meteor Shower Weekend - and the Last Weekend - I mean - well I don't know. I'm going to go for at least one weekend - I have too, I promised I would - Well if nothing else I bet I'll leave with a big smile to back my 'I Told You So!'.
For Now: *stumbling around a messy house, cleaning while singing along "I'm Just An Old DanceHall Dreamer, Living My Life In The Past, Holding on to Dreams and Slow Moving Trains... And I Don't Know How Long I can Last.." Thank you Pat Green :] *
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out.... Wave On....
Monday, September 27, 2004
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Higher Pay - Minimal Experience and Fairies
I think I'm trying to find a new job. I'm thinking maybe something where I work in a office like environment, doing work that redefines 'mindless' or 'mindnumbing' - and if at all possible, do so and make more money at it then what I'm doing now. And that last part isn't exactly hard.
Working very hard for very little, it's been a bit of a theme with my JOB choices. Not like I meant for the record to sum up like that - just amazing what the past 5 years of our lives become when we really aren't looking...
So I'm searching in Houston, just taking a look in the papers and online - just to see what there is to be seen. I might even check up on Longview - yes it's a very small place, but I do have family there. I also love San Antonio, But - and I never thought I would say this, but Dallas and Austin, might be worth looking into... Well maybe Dallas.. Austin kind of like all the work I could actually maybe apply for there is probably already handled by magical intern fairies. For the time being, I'm still really leaning towards Houston. I actually have friends here still, so maybe I could at least find a room mate I can semi trust.. cancel that thought - I don't really play nice enough with anyone for that. :P
So I guess Houston is good, because the handful I have left - are still good for quick lunches and Friday night hanging.
I also just remembered I have a really good friend in Georgia.. who knows.. Though I really can't see leaving Texas for an 'eastern southern' state.
Soooo October is on it's way. Opening weekend of Renaissance Festival.. if your into that kind of thing - I use to think I was, but then I met people who make me look like a tourist - soooo yeah. I'm sure I'll spend one day out there, maybe late October. A cat managed to destroy my 'Costume' so I'm thinking; Jeans, boots - possible leather, Fashionable Fall Sweater or tank top, with an old denim or vintage leather jacket and then just pulling my hair back, and letting the elf ears pass the subtle hints that I actually like being there. Then my Lil' Sisters birthday is also the first weekend - My mom's thinking Haunted Houses and Pizza Place. And I think there might be a Party going on somewhere that weekend Also - jeepers what a tough choice.
The real Killer is that there is also the FallFanDango - Pat Green along with many other good Texas Music names. All Day Long. I have two chances to see them.. assuming this next pay check allows it.
*Crosses Fingers*
I really don't want to have to wait until next years Rodeo - of course Pat Green will have other shows. It's just a matter of when and where and How Much and Can I? - Ooooh I can't wait for that new CD to come out - whenever it actually does.
Oh and Yes - Halloween! Any body doing anything? Any parties? Any get to gethers? Any loners amongst my friends just looking for something to do, but sit at home and pass out candy to rotten poorly dressed children? I mean how many Yugiohs and Spider-Mans and Power Puff girls - can you really stand for one night?
Outside of all of that? My main emotion this week has been neutral. Last week was happy, this week was 'Agh'. Which I'm ok with. I never asked for happy, I'm not about to complain about a neutral 'Agh'.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On....
Working very hard for very little, it's been a bit of a theme with my JOB choices. Not like I meant for the record to sum up like that - just amazing what the past 5 years of our lives become when we really aren't looking...
So I'm searching in Houston, just taking a look in the papers and online - just to see what there is to be seen. I might even check up on Longview - yes it's a very small place, but I do have family there. I also love San Antonio, But - and I never thought I would say this, but Dallas and Austin, might be worth looking into... Well maybe Dallas.. Austin kind of like all the work I could actually maybe apply for there is probably already handled by magical intern fairies. For the time being, I'm still really leaning towards Houston. I actually have friends here still, so maybe I could at least find a room mate I can semi trust.. cancel that thought - I don't really play nice enough with anyone for that. :P
So I guess Houston is good, because the handful I have left - are still good for quick lunches and Friday night hanging.
I also just remembered I have a really good friend in Georgia.. who knows.. Though I really can't see leaving Texas for an 'eastern southern' state.
Soooo October is on it's way. Opening weekend of Renaissance Festival.. if your into that kind of thing - I use to think I was, but then I met people who make me look like a tourist - soooo yeah. I'm sure I'll spend one day out there, maybe late October. A cat managed to destroy my 'Costume' so I'm thinking; Jeans, boots - possible leather, Fashionable Fall Sweater or tank top, with an old denim or vintage leather jacket and then just pulling my hair back, and letting the elf ears pass the subtle hints that I actually like being there. Then my Lil' Sisters birthday is also the first weekend - My mom's thinking Haunted Houses and Pizza Place. And I think there might be a Party going on somewhere that weekend Also - jeepers what a tough choice.
The real Killer is that there is also the FallFanDango - Pat Green along with many other good Texas Music names. All Day Long. I have two chances to see them.. assuming this next pay check allows it.
*Crosses Fingers*
I really don't want to have to wait until next years Rodeo - of course Pat Green will have other shows. It's just a matter of when and where and How Much and Can I? - Ooooh I can't wait for that new CD to come out - whenever it actually does.
Oh and Yes - Halloween! Any body doing anything? Any parties? Any get to gethers? Any loners amongst my friends just looking for something to do, but sit at home and pass out candy to rotten poorly dressed children? I mean how many Yugiohs and Spider-Mans and Power Puff girls - can you really stand for one night?
Outside of all of that? My main emotion this week has been neutral. Last week was happy, this week was 'Agh'. Which I'm ok with. I never asked for happy, I'm not about to complain about a neutral 'Agh'.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On....
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Slow Weekend
My little world is kind of boring right now.
I'm still going through Waves - I watched Meet Joe Black for the first time yesterday.. and well of course that brought on some waves. That and after a few hit and miss conversations with some friends who didn't have a clue where I was coming from or what my life was like previous to last August. So yeah what a wavey day yesterday was.
Oh but on the bright side - I went to the Galleria. And Hot Topic was having the 50% off the clearance price. I actually ended up with 2 tanktops, one Black with pok-a-dot accents halter top. And here is the real out-of-my-style buy; a black mini skirt - with pleats and yellow plaid accents. I have no idea where I'm going to wear it. It was cheap, cute and yes an impulse buy. I feel it maybe a bit Avril'ish, but who cares. It's purpose will reveal it's self in Time. Keep in mind the 4 items + 2 packs of really cool note book paper equal roughly a total or 30 dollars. :]
Outside of that I spent last night hanging out and watching Invaders Zim, with a friend and doing that 'Happy' thing again. I could get used to this. Take on the waves as they come - and believe me they do. Not a second where at least one part of my mind isn't in constant devotion to Russell and every now and then something prays on that portion. But maybe it's not such a bad thing when I can have a few hours every evening to just breathe and love being alive - all things considered.
Outside of that, It's now Sunday and who knows where this day will take me. I know all to well that ones life can change in a moment. And there hasn't been a constant breeze about this side of Texas since the Summer began.
oh on a side note - I don't really see me getting the chance to see Pat Green in either Selma Texas or Houston Texas this October - unless I can still snag good seats come next pay check in 2 weeks. Which is entirely possible given the fact that the tickets in Selma are still really good for the price. Either way I will see Pat Green before the year is up.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On...
I'm still going through Waves - I watched Meet Joe Black for the first time yesterday.. and well of course that brought on some waves. That and after a few hit and miss conversations with some friends who didn't have a clue where I was coming from or what my life was like previous to last August. So yeah what a wavey day yesterday was.
Oh but on the bright side - I went to the Galleria. And Hot Topic was having the 50% off the clearance price. I actually ended up with 2 tanktops, one Black with pok-a-dot accents halter top. And here is the real out-of-my-style buy; a black mini skirt - with pleats and yellow plaid accents. I have no idea where I'm going to wear it. It was cheap, cute and yes an impulse buy. I feel it maybe a bit Avril'ish, but who cares. It's purpose will reveal it's self in Time. Keep in mind the 4 items + 2 packs of really cool note book paper equal roughly a total or 30 dollars. :]
Outside of that I spent last night hanging out and watching Invaders Zim, with a friend and doing that 'Happy' thing again. I could get used to this. Take on the waves as they come - and believe me they do. Not a second where at least one part of my mind isn't in constant devotion to Russell and every now and then something prays on that portion. But maybe it's not such a bad thing when I can have a few hours every evening to just breathe and love being alive - all things considered.
Outside of that, It's now Sunday and who knows where this day will take me. I know all to well that ones life can change in a moment. And there hasn't been a constant breeze about this side of Texas since the Summer began.
oh on a side note - I don't really see me getting the chance to see Pat Green in either Selma Texas or Houston Texas this October - unless I can still snag good seats come next pay check in 2 weeks. Which is entirely possible given the fact that the tickets in Selma are still really good for the price. Either way I will see Pat Green before the year is up.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On...
Thursday, September 16, 2004
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feel great... Because honestly - what do you really have better to do.....
feel great... Because honestly - what do you really have better to do.....
songs around my head
Ok, so you know roughly what I did last weekend. For the past three days I'll give another run by. Much shorter.. I hope...
Tuesday: Discovered that the DVD's at Hollywood Video, titled DEAD LIKE ME are actually very good. I'm still looking up more information and I will promise to bring you more on it soon, but in the mean time if your looking for something to watch, and if you like dark humor, pick up any one of the first seasons collection and enjoy, cause I know you will. Later in the evening, I was slightly shanghaied again - this time I was held at the Ice House. A bit of drama... lots of boredom and those who know me best know that once I become board it's not that far of a stretch for me to move into mean - sharpened tongue and all. The night ended... and I use that term loosely.
Wednesday: Some how I managed to get through my day at work with out getting fired, despite the fact I ran my first shift on about an hour-and-a-half of sleep. I did the smart thing and took the Pearl everywhere I went so that way I could get home at a slightly more decent hour.
So now it's THURSDAY. And who knows what is instore. More time watching Dead Like Me, on a friends couch with some carry out or delivery close at hand to surfice the need for munchies? Maybe. Another day of trying to figure out my new Cell Phone - yes I have finally began to catch up with the rest of the world...
A bit less of what I do and a bit more of what and/or who I am...
For the past two nights in a row I have experienced moments where I have felt happy. And I mean truly happy. And it has lasted for more then a passing moment. When this happens I look at where I'm at, who I'm with and what I'm doing - and honestly I have no real reason to feel Happy. Now that's not to say I should feel awful and constantly down in the dumps - and that's not to say I'm un happy with being happy. I think it's just odd - to feel happy for no reason. I guess I'm really just getting back to living. The waves of course still come. Some days are far worse then others.
Speaking of waves, I heard Wave On Wave, while I was driving home late Tuesday or rather Early Wednesday... and it came on right after It's Your Love, and the first verse in Wave On Wave is.. or rather the opening line is; "This Road That I Am Upon Has No Direction" And later, right before the song reaches it's first chorus the lyrics read "So Caught Now Up In Pretending, What We're Seeking Is The Truth... I'm Just Looking For A Happy Ending - All I'm Looking For Is You." ... I swear this song gets me. I mean it's not even my favorite Pat Green song.. Not Even close. Every time I turn around it hits me from a new perspective.
I guess my real point is every time I turn around there is a song playing on the radio or in the back ground to one of the scenes that make up my life that echoes Russell and my time with him. Like 'our' song, if I had to pin one down was probably 'My Song' by Elton John. - I think it's called My Song... maybe Your Song...oh well. Anyways so I could go forever without hearing it on the radio - now I here it like at least once a week. And Pat Green's Take Me Out To A Dancehall.... I heard it for the first time of the Radio the other night... Donna Luis; I Love You Always Forever... which has a very small tie in to a memory, but still I had gone forever without hearing it, and all of a sudden, I heard it 3 times in the last week or so. And there is so much more, and I dodge many songs - Never Godsmack of course. I always turn up the volume when they come on, nice and loud - pump up the base a bit. It's kind of like what happened in the issue of SandMan, where he goes to pay a visit to John Constantine - I don't know, I think that's right. And sometimes the weight of the waves will crash down upon me and pull me under.. and some times they lift me up.
I don't know - Just some random thoughts. I'm good at that.
Whatever Tommorow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On
Tuesday: Discovered that the DVD's at Hollywood Video, titled DEAD LIKE ME are actually very good. I'm still looking up more information and I will promise to bring you more on it soon, but in the mean time if your looking for something to watch, and if you like dark humor, pick up any one of the first seasons collection and enjoy, cause I know you will. Later in the evening, I was slightly shanghaied again - this time I was held at the Ice House. A bit of drama... lots of boredom and those who know me best know that once I become board it's not that far of a stretch for me to move into mean - sharpened tongue and all. The night ended... and I use that term loosely.
Wednesday: Some how I managed to get through my day at work with out getting fired, despite the fact I ran my first shift on about an hour-and-a-half of sleep. I did the smart thing and took the Pearl everywhere I went so that way I could get home at a slightly more decent hour.
So now it's THURSDAY. And who knows what is instore. More time watching Dead Like Me, on a friends couch with some carry out or delivery close at hand to surfice the need for munchies? Maybe. Another day of trying to figure out my new Cell Phone - yes I have finally began to catch up with the rest of the world...
A bit less of what I do and a bit more of what and/or who I am...
For the past two nights in a row I have experienced moments where I have felt happy. And I mean truly happy. And it has lasted for more then a passing moment. When this happens I look at where I'm at, who I'm with and what I'm doing - and honestly I have no real reason to feel Happy. Now that's not to say I should feel awful and constantly down in the dumps - and that's not to say I'm un happy with being happy. I think it's just odd - to feel happy for no reason. I guess I'm really just getting back to living. The waves of course still come. Some days are far worse then others.
Speaking of waves, I heard Wave On Wave, while I was driving home late Tuesday or rather Early Wednesday... and it came on right after It's Your Love, and the first verse in Wave On Wave is.. or rather the opening line is; "This Road That I Am Upon Has No Direction" And later, right before the song reaches it's first chorus the lyrics read "So Caught Now Up In Pretending, What We're Seeking Is The Truth... I'm Just Looking For A Happy Ending - All I'm Looking For Is You." ... I swear this song gets me. I mean it's not even my favorite Pat Green song.. Not Even close. Every time I turn around it hits me from a new perspective.
I guess my real point is every time I turn around there is a song playing on the radio or in the back ground to one of the scenes that make up my life that echoes Russell and my time with him. Like 'our' song, if I had to pin one down was probably 'My Song' by Elton John. - I think it's called My Song... maybe Your Song...oh well. Anyways so I could go forever without hearing it on the radio - now I here it like at least once a week. And Pat Green's Take Me Out To A Dancehall.... I heard it for the first time of the Radio the other night... Donna Luis; I Love You Always Forever... which has a very small tie in to a memory, but still I had gone forever without hearing it, and all of a sudden, I heard it 3 times in the last week or so. And there is so much more, and I dodge many songs - Never Godsmack of course. I always turn up the volume when they come on, nice and loud - pump up the base a bit. It's kind of like what happened in the issue of SandMan, where he goes to pay a visit to John Constantine - I don't know, I think that's right. And sometimes the weight of the waves will crash down upon me and pull me under.. and some times they lift me up.
I don't know - Just some random thoughts. I'm good at that.
Whatever Tommorow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Four Long Days
I think I have some things to say, but before I get to the longer drawn out stuff, I'm going to give a quick run by on what I have been doing with the past four days of my life, just a short reference, for those who read this to see where I've been, Who I've been with, and Where I'm going to be...
Friday: Well after the long woe-is-me bull shit I loaded my last post down with, I went out to meet DJ, for diner and a movie. Diner took place at Hooters - yes we are a classy bunch. I will say they do have good sandwiches and DrPepper, but honestly I've never had so many barley dressed women 'bump' into me so many times in one down noted evening. I'm really just glad I was facing the wall, looking at the same 4 pictures over and over again, every once in a while turning my head to scope out which ever waitress my dining partner was eyeing from moment to moment, if only to argue the pros and cons of Their hotness. You would be amazed how the interest levels rises and drop when you actually force someone to really study their eye candy, rather then allowing them (or in some cases your self - cute guys do eat there too ) to be satisfied with the over all appeal.
Then the Movie! Resident Evil: APOCALYPSE. I know it's not exactly my kind of movie, but DJ has this thing for Mila Jovanovich, the leading lady playing Alice. And even though there were no really hot guys in the movie, I fell head over heals for the look of Jill Valentine, I'm seriously considering the hair cut. All things aside, I liked this movie.
I have nothing to really compare it to, so maybe that's why so far I like it.
I have never seen the first, I think I'm doing that tonight, so expect a review with in a day or so.
We caught the really really late showing, so I was a bit surprised to wake up the next morning on DJ's couch, apparently we had both passed out from sheer exhaustion. Saturday: Picking up where Friday left off, I ended up spending the Lazy Saturday hanging out with DJ & R of R&R. *smirks*
Sorry, couldn't resist.
After diner, the four of us; R&R, DJ and yours truly headed out to some western bar in Pasadena. Drinks and Dancing. Well Drinks.. after all I can't dance all that well. Now I could go into some really entraining detail here.... But I'll spare you all.If only for the sake of those who had just a few more drinks the I did that night.
Sunday: The first half of Sunday is all about recovering from the second half of Saturday. Well helping others Recover. Which includes colorful recaps of "You'll Never Guess What You Don't Remember!"
The second half of Sunday on the other hand was spent again Bar Side. Muchless drinking then Saturday's run, given Monday starts the new work week. But what really made Sunday night wasn't the expensive shots of vodka or pool games, but rather the company. Again I was out with DJ, R&R, but also with a few other friends of theirs. Like one man inparticular who works with some pretty big names in the country music industry. One half of the group is talking about Photography.. which I know nothing about. The other half is sharing stories about Kenny Chessney and Tim McGraw like these guys were just your average Joe Hang-Outs. I stand alone between the two, lil' miss Mystery, her self - quite, but not nearly intriguing enough. Taking part in neither conversation.
Yes - I realize how stupid I am for not jumping in on the Country Music conversing, more so given the fact that most of the songs I write are country themed (or rather Texas Style) and more so given the fact that after I get my Guitar - I was actually planning on trying to maybe do something with 'it'. Which means mostly looking at years of smoke filled third rate bar rooms, that is of course if I possess even a slight amount of talent. We shall see.
stupid.. Very Stupid. But what's done is done. If that's an opportunity I was meant to take, then maybe it will come up again.. maybe not. That just wasn't a connection I was prepared to make at this time.
Stupid.... yes I agree....
Monday: Back to work..
My cell phone finally arrived and I am now finally on my way to catching up with the rest of the world - about damn time.
I watched a movie called Anarchest Cook Book, deals with anarchy and stuff. I really didn't expect to enjoy it, but I did. I mean maybe I'm just amused easier as the weeks go by. Either way it held my interest longer then Bad Santa.
OK, so I still have stuff to talk about, but for now I'll leave this as it is, Expect more post in the near future. This one is already to long.
Friday: Well after the long woe-is-me bull shit I loaded my last post down with, I went out to meet DJ, for diner and a movie. Diner took place at Hooters - yes we are a classy bunch. I will say they do have good sandwiches and DrPepper, but honestly I've never had so many barley dressed women 'bump' into me so many times in one down noted evening. I'm really just glad I was facing the wall, looking at the same 4 pictures over and over again, every once in a while turning my head to scope out which ever waitress my dining partner was eyeing from moment to moment, if only to argue the pros and cons of Their hotness. You would be amazed how the interest levels rises and drop when you actually force someone to really study their eye candy, rather then allowing them (or in some cases your self - cute guys do eat there too ) to be satisfied with the over all appeal.
Then the Movie! Resident Evil: APOCALYPSE. I know it's not exactly my kind of movie, but DJ has this thing for Mila Jovanovich, the leading lady playing Alice. And even though there were no really hot guys in the movie, I fell head over heals for the look of Jill Valentine, I'm seriously considering the hair cut. All things aside, I liked this movie.
I have nothing to really compare it to, so maybe that's why so far I like it.
I have never seen the first, I think I'm doing that tonight, so expect a review with in a day or so.
We caught the really really late showing, so I was a bit surprised to wake up the next morning on DJ's couch, apparently we had both passed out from sheer exhaustion. Saturday: Picking up where Friday left off, I ended up spending the Lazy Saturday hanging out with DJ & R of R&R. *smirks*
Sorry, couldn't resist.
After diner, the four of us; R&R, DJ and yours truly headed out to some western bar in Pasadena. Drinks and Dancing. Well Drinks.. after all I can't dance all that well. Now I could go into some really entraining detail here.... But I'll spare you all.If only for the sake of those who had just a few more drinks the I did that night.
Sunday: The first half of Sunday is all about recovering from the second half of Saturday. Well helping others Recover. Which includes colorful recaps of "You'll Never Guess What You Don't Remember!"
The second half of Sunday on the other hand was spent again Bar Side. Muchless drinking then Saturday's run, given Monday starts the new work week. But what really made Sunday night wasn't the expensive shots of vodka or pool games, but rather the company. Again I was out with DJ, R&R, but also with a few other friends of theirs. Like one man inparticular who works with some pretty big names in the country music industry. One half of the group is talking about Photography.. which I know nothing about. The other half is sharing stories about Kenny Chessney and Tim McGraw like these guys were just your average Joe Hang-Outs. I stand alone between the two, lil' miss Mystery, her self - quite, but not nearly intriguing enough. Taking part in neither conversation.
Yes - I realize how stupid I am for not jumping in on the Country Music conversing, more so given the fact that most of the songs I write are country themed (or rather Texas Style) and more so given the fact that after I get my Guitar - I was actually planning on trying to maybe do something with 'it'. Which means mostly looking at years of smoke filled third rate bar rooms, that is of course if I possess even a slight amount of talent. We shall see.
stupid.. Very Stupid. But what's done is done. If that's an opportunity I was meant to take, then maybe it will come up again.. maybe not. That just wasn't a connection I was prepared to make at this time.
Stupid.... yes I agree....
Monday: Back to work..
My cell phone finally arrived and I am now finally on my way to catching up with the rest of the world - about damn time.
I watched a movie called Anarchest Cook Book, deals with anarchy and stuff. I really didn't expect to enjoy it, but I did. I mean maybe I'm just amused easier as the weeks go by. Either way it held my interest longer then Bad Santa.
OK, so I still have stuff to talk about, but for now I'll leave this as it is, Expect more post in the near future. This one is already to long.
Friday, September 10, 2004
Here We Go...
So wow..
I can already see it's going to be one of those weekends.
Then again It's already been one of those weeks.
I went out and bought the Pat Green 'Here We Go' live CD - that man can do no wrong, musically speaking of course - I shouldn't have spent the 13 bucks, but I know exactly what kind of weekend I'm in for, and I figured I would need it, and I already have the rum, so sounds like a promising weekend.
I try to take life as it comes at me, take the bad - and there has been allot of bad - as it hits me and chalk it up to one more step to having this lesson learned. I take the good - I try to enjoy it as much as I can for the moment I have it, because like the song goes "All The Good Things Fade Away". I try not to let opportunities pass me by, but I do take on each one with a grain of salt. (Honestly that may not be the right saying, but WTFC) I recently learned what it means to Jump In With Both Feet, But Don't Jump The Gun. I'd like to think I may have started to live with this as my guide and Jer. 29:11 as my reminder tomorrow is something to wake up to.
*SIGHS*
Still last night.. or rather this morning showed me that be it the 'Above' saying, or Carpedem (Sp? like I so care at this point) ... It only serves you if you hold to it, stead fast and strong. If you don't... If I don't then I become what I am now;
Out of Luck, but I'm used to that. Out of time...And I admit, honestly half the time:
I haven't a cubs shot at the world series -
A snowballs chance in hell -
a cowboy's chance on a pirate ship -
at achieving even a moments window of a shot at most of the things I want.
And no I'm not talking career wise.. I actually know what I want to do now. Sort of. And yes, I'm sure it's probably as out of odds as everything else I seem to think about, but who cares? As long as I make enough to get by, I can keep myself occupied with life long dreams.
I'm sure to have a good life.. I will see to that one way or the other, I will not die thinking 'Damn It!'.This isn't about how much my life sucks.. because it's annoying sometimes, and hell yeah it'll get me down if I let it, but I'm doing that 'breathing' thing - so I might as well do that 'Living' thing. So I'm not going to jump right to the 'Sucks' as a defining word.
This is just about a wake up call, for me...
NOW What Do I Do With It?
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out.... Wave On....
Seriously:
Should I take this lesson, chalk it up to well learned and write it off as better luck next time. While spending the rest of my life holding back and second guessing - you know like commen sense has us do...
or
Should I take this lesson, chalk it up to well learned and write it off as better luck next time, but begin to live it up, brazzing & bold? (in which case I feel sorry for you guys :] )
OR
Should I take this lesson, chalk it up to well learned and screw the better luck next time and actually try to save what's left of the handful of things that are about to pass me compeletly by...
OR
Really say screw it all, and finish up catching up, and pack my bags, WEST TEXAS bound..
come on anyone out there.. what'll it be?
I can already see it's going to be one of those weekends.
Then again It's already been one of those weeks.
I went out and bought the Pat Green 'Here We Go' live CD - that man can do no wrong, musically speaking of course - I shouldn't have spent the 13 bucks, but I know exactly what kind of weekend I'm in for, and I figured I would need it, and I already have the rum, so sounds like a promising weekend.
I try to take life as it comes at me, take the bad - and there has been allot of bad - as it hits me and chalk it up to one more step to having this lesson learned. I take the good - I try to enjoy it as much as I can for the moment I have it, because like the song goes "All The Good Things Fade Away". I try not to let opportunities pass me by, but I do take on each one with a grain of salt. (Honestly that may not be the right saying, but WTFC) I recently learned what it means to Jump In With Both Feet, But Don't Jump The Gun. I'd like to think I may have started to live with this as my guide and Jer. 29:11 as my reminder tomorrow is something to wake up to.
*SIGHS*
Still last night.. or rather this morning showed me that be it the 'Above' saying, or Carpedem (Sp? like I so care at this point) ... It only serves you if you hold to it, stead fast and strong. If you don't... If I don't then I become what I am now;
Out of Luck, but I'm used to that. Out of time...And I admit, honestly half the time:
I haven't a cubs shot at the world series -
A snowballs chance in hell -
a cowboy's chance on a pirate ship -
at achieving even a moments window of a shot at most of the things I want.
And no I'm not talking career wise.. I actually know what I want to do now. Sort of. And yes, I'm sure it's probably as out of odds as everything else I seem to think about, but who cares? As long as I make enough to get by, I can keep myself occupied with life long dreams.
I'm sure to have a good life.. I will see to that one way or the other, I will not die thinking 'Damn It!'.This isn't about how much my life sucks.. because it's annoying sometimes, and hell yeah it'll get me down if I let it, but I'm doing that 'breathing' thing - so I might as well do that 'Living' thing. So I'm not going to jump right to the 'Sucks' as a defining word.
This is just about a wake up call, for me...
NOW What Do I Do With It?
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out.... Wave On....
Seriously:
Should I take this lesson, chalk it up to well learned and write it off as better luck next time. While spending the rest of my life holding back and second guessing - you know like commen sense has us do...
or
Should I take this lesson, chalk it up to well learned and write it off as better luck next time, but begin to live it up, brazzing & bold? (in which case I feel sorry for you guys :] )
OR
Should I take this lesson, chalk it up to well learned and screw the better luck next time and actually try to save what's left of the handful of things that are about to pass me compeletly by...
OR
Really say screw it all, and finish up catching up, and pack my bags, WEST TEXAS bound..
come on anyone out there.. what'll it be?
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Frio and Astros
So it rained about 50% or more of the time, when I was away in Garner. Mostly in the middle of the night and in the mornings. Still I managed to get a nice uneven sun burn on my legs anyways. Trading in the old 'sock' tan for the new and improved 'cheap tenni shoe' tan line. *sighs* Pigmentation comes at such an initial painful cost. Time flys when your tubing down a cool river. As well, my jeep has finally started to recover from the rain and river water that has kept it smelling musty these past two long sunny days home. Honestly the burning skin and stinky jeep are only the tip of my camping experience iceberg....
FRIDAY! I clock out of work with a smile. In about an hour or two, I would be on my way to pick up DJ and we would be off for a long weekend in Garner, along side the Frio River. I was extactic as I'm sure some of ya'll already have read. After a few short 'Ello's to his family, and he and I are off! I-10 West Bound. And of course I'm driving. I had allot of stuff I wanted to think about and I really didn't feel ready to hand the wheel over just yet. Traffic just outside of Katy was horrific! And yes, that's West Bound outside of Katy. Can You Imagine? And, I'm so glad that I did decided to drive, because I have patience, and well DJ simply dose not. (sorry DJ if your reading this, but that is no news to you.)
Eventually Trafic lets up and we are on our way. Radio on, no coversation.. I wanted to think, but I couldn't.. maybe a side effect to knowing a long drive ahead of me. Honestly I think we both had long days, so the silence was nice.
Fast forward about 3 to 4 hours... Apparently when my mind shifts into an over-drive and my nerves begin to reck, I quickly begin to lose what little 'good driving' skill I have. So I didn't mind pulling over and giving over the wheel. It gave me a chance to take in the breath taking night sky. Diamonds in the black abyss. We finally arrive at the camp sites, grab an open spot and pitch up the tent and such.. (keep in mind I haven't done this in 11 years) And plan to register the next morning to preserve our spot.
Morning comes! The Jeep's dead...
We drained the battery the night before setting up our camp. Finding help is almost impossible.
And then the really good news comes: Someone else is asigned the site we are at, so that means moving one spot over, in the rain... across fire ant beds and chiggers (I hope that's the right name for the painful, evil, bastard son of mother earth).
On the upside, the people now moving us on are helping us recharge the Jeep's battery.. which due to inadequacy in the cable size, is about as much of a waste of time as trying to stay dry while setting up our camp for the second time around. Luckily by the time we finish, another helpful neighbor camper, loans us his jumper cables and we finally start off down the road towards the Wal*Mart - an hour-and-a-half away. Never turning the jeep off as we go along our way, including our short stop off to confirm our reservations at the camp site, which were lost in the mix up of things... oh and yes it gets better.
By the end of the day, we have managed to recharge the battery, Secure our site and reservation - and after a quick nap we head out to the Dance.
Yes - THE DANCE! It's a weekend thing that takes place out in Garner. People come from the 5 to 50 surounding towns, to gather for some two-stepping to the sounds of a juke box pumping out - and this is the best part - Good Texas Music. I mean Pat Green, George Straight, Dericks Bentley, Chad Creagur (sp?'s all around) and so on and so forth. - I love it!
Until I reach the realization that I can't 2Step and DJ can't 'spin step' and even if we try to figure it out while we are there, the sight of us practicing is sure to scare away all the eligible hotties. And trust me, the good looking cowboys flow like river water on that dance floor. Obviously, I'm just looking for a good time.. after a day like that? Duh!
So the night ends with us drinking our Coke and vanilla Rum mixes while watching "Freddy Got Fingered"... due to our matching pairs of 'Left Feet'.
DAY 2! Good start off, we head out to the river. Four hours drifting along a cool river.
( "Guy Like Me" Playing through my head)
Slowly burning in the few areas, where apparently I didn't apply near enough sun screen. Another night of THE DANCE - Final night of the season.
Cowboys everywhere... and I still can't dance.
We make an attempt...
we make another attempt...
we make another attempt and
yet another one after that..
then we give up!
Head back to camp for Rum and Coke - and some nasty out door cooking - I'm no cheif.. that proves it.
DAY 3! We wake up to a rain.. rain and more rain... so we pack up in the Rain. Everything wet and dirty.
The sum up = My jeep will smell ... it will smell very bad... and it dose smell bad.
GUESS WHAT!
I FEEL GREAT!
It was exactly what I needed. Mostly needing 5 hours away from cleaning and just the same old same old.
In recent news; I went to an Astros' game last night. It was my first chance to experience the Minute Maid Park. We had good seats. We had a great deal, so drinks and cookies were called for.
The Astros' beat the Ciniatti Red's; 9 to 7.
It was sooo nice.
I loved getting back into the city,
I loved watching the game.
Oh... and I loved watching #44 pitch. Roy Oswalt. ... Yeah... Yeah... I know I know. Get used to it. I am still the Boy Crazy girl I've always been. So bring on the Johnny Depp movies and now, the Astro's games.
My fingers are tired, so I bid you all, good bye for now...
Whatever Tomorrow Brings.... Spiral Out... Wave On
FRIDAY! I clock out of work with a smile. In about an hour or two, I would be on my way to pick up DJ and we would be off for a long weekend in Garner, along side the Frio River. I was extactic as I'm sure some of ya'll already have read. After a few short 'Ello's to his family, and he and I are off! I-10 West Bound. And of course I'm driving. I had allot of stuff I wanted to think about and I really didn't feel ready to hand the wheel over just yet. Traffic just outside of Katy was horrific! And yes, that's West Bound outside of Katy. Can You Imagine? And, I'm so glad that I did decided to drive, because I have patience, and well DJ simply dose not. (sorry DJ if your reading this, but that is no news to you.)
Eventually Trafic lets up and we are on our way. Radio on, no coversation.. I wanted to think, but I couldn't.. maybe a side effect to knowing a long drive ahead of me. Honestly I think we both had long days, so the silence was nice.
Fast forward about 3 to 4 hours... Apparently when my mind shifts into an over-drive and my nerves begin to reck, I quickly begin to lose what little 'good driving' skill I have. So I didn't mind pulling over and giving over the wheel. It gave me a chance to take in the breath taking night sky. Diamonds in the black abyss. We finally arrive at the camp sites, grab an open spot and pitch up the tent and such.. (keep in mind I haven't done this in 11 years) And plan to register the next morning to preserve our spot.
Morning comes! The Jeep's dead...
We drained the battery the night before setting up our camp. Finding help is almost impossible.
And then the really good news comes: Someone else is asigned the site we are at, so that means moving one spot over, in the rain... across fire ant beds and chiggers (I hope that's the right name for the painful, evil, bastard son of mother earth).
On the upside, the people now moving us on are helping us recharge the Jeep's battery.. which due to inadequacy in the cable size, is about as much of a waste of time as trying to stay dry while setting up our camp for the second time around. Luckily by the time we finish, another helpful neighbor camper, loans us his jumper cables and we finally start off down the road towards the Wal*Mart - an hour-and-a-half away. Never turning the jeep off as we go along our way, including our short stop off to confirm our reservations at the camp site, which were lost in the mix up of things... oh and yes it gets better.
By the end of the day, we have managed to recharge the battery, Secure our site and reservation - and after a quick nap we head out to the Dance.
Yes - THE DANCE! It's a weekend thing that takes place out in Garner. People come from the 5 to 50 surounding towns, to gather for some two-stepping to the sounds of a juke box pumping out - and this is the best part - Good Texas Music. I mean Pat Green, George Straight, Dericks Bentley, Chad Creagur (sp?'s all around) and so on and so forth. - I love it!
Until I reach the realization that I can't 2Step and DJ can't 'spin step' and even if we try to figure it out while we are there, the sight of us practicing is sure to scare away all the eligible hotties. And trust me, the good looking cowboys flow like river water on that dance floor. Obviously, I'm just looking for a good time.. after a day like that? Duh!
So the night ends with us drinking our Coke and vanilla Rum mixes while watching "Freddy Got Fingered"... due to our matching pairs of 'Left Feet'.
DAY 2! Good start off, we head out to the river. Four hours drifting along a cool river.
( "Guy Like Me" Playing through my head)
Slowly burning in the few areas, where apparently I didn't apply near enough sun screen. Another night of THE DANCE - Final night of the season.
Cowboys everywhere... and I still can't dance.
We make an attempt...
we make another attempt...
we make another attempt and
yet another one after that..
then we give up!
Head back to camp for Rum and Coke - and some nasty out door cooking - I'm no cheif.. that proves it.
DAY 3! We wake up to a rain.. rain and more rain... so we pack up in the Rain. Everything wet and dirty.
The sum up = My jeep will smell ... it will smell very bad... and it dose smell bad.
GUESS WHAT!
I FEEL GREAT!
It was exactly what I needed. Mostly needing 5 hours away from cleaning and just the same old same old.
In recent news; I went to an Astros' game last night. It was my first chance to experience the Minute Maid Park. We had good seats. We had a great deal, so drinks and cookies were called for.
The Astros' beat the Ciniatti Red's; 9 to 7.
It was sooo nice.
I loved getting back into the city,
I loved watching the game.
Oh... and I loved watching #44 pitch. Roy Oswalt. ... Yeah... Yeah... I know I know. Get used to it. I am still the Boy Crazy girl I've always been. So bring on the Johnny Depp movies and now, the Astro's games.
My fingers are tired, so I bid you all, good bye for now...
Whatever Tomorrow Brings.... Spiral Out... Wave On
Friday, September 03, 2004
Stars On The Water
InComing! ; The followintg post in chalkfull of wonderful typo's. I shall fix it when I return (see under para) and by the way for my Local pals' My phone is back in working condition.... I may not be around to take the calls this weekend.. if any, but I'm sure to return them promptly on Tuesday.
In a few short hours I'll be packing it up and heading out west-ward-way! Frio river camping. I haven't been camping in about 11 years. And yes that is not counting all the late nights dragging my feet around the cemeteries. Oddly enough, I think the last time I went and did the 'camping' thing was at the Frio River, and I'm told I had a good time, last time... I can't say I believe that, but never the less be it for one reason or another; I am so very excited about driving in the Jeep for 5 hours, spending the next 3 days/ 2 nights along the cool crisp river side, just me and a friend - escaping reality for one weekend. I only really get out on my own or with a friend for a weekend trip about Once a year! I so very much aim to change that. I mean day trips are a dime a dozen and provide much need get-a-way time, but sometimes 12 to 24 hours is just not enough. Maybe this will calm my reckless nature a bit - I doubt it, but at least for the few months ahead it will take me to save up the money to do anything about it, I mean that much would be most appreciated. All and all, I'm pretty sure I'll be dancing out of work come 5 O'Clock.
In other news; I know I have so much to catch up on.. on line and off line. And I hate to say it, but it looks like it might have to wait until Tuesday (see above para). Still believe it or not, but I may have actually come across an 'open door'. As elusive as these rare opportunities are and most certainly have been with me as of late, you can understand why I approach the possibility of an 'Open Door'.. and 'Opportunity Knock' with high caution. I mean no doubt it's what I've been looking for, but it's entirely possible that it's an 'open door' created with another in mind. And I'm sure we all have been in a situation where we persuade an Opportunity, a truly honest and good one, that unfortunately despite all the 'up sides' just does not work with our own personal invidual selves. In which case if it can be salvaged, must be passed along to the next more suitable occupant. - It's Ok, They Know Me Here... - Anyways, to cut through the playful word play - I wasn't having that much fun anyways - this opportunity falls in the field of Job/Career/Bussiness.. In the field of Photography. No, No I'm not about to pick up a camera or step in front of one, but my efficiency skills have been called upon, and for now - Why not? Now there is a possibility that this could lead to a real career.. I don't know if I'm ready for that just yet. I mean we are talking the prospect of eventual better pay, better hours, better work environment and so much more with the word better in front of them - Seriously I don't know how capable I am right not of handling something that could peg me down to one location for a while. I'm all for 'Resposability', but some lines must be drawn... I'm kidding of course... Slightly.
Aside from that, not to freak any readers out, but I know one or two of you might get a laugh at my expense from this:
Happiness reigns in a romantic relationship, as a commitment seems to be taking place, Lyndsey . It may be unspoken at the moment, but not for long. Your feeling of security and confidence in this relationship is not misplaced; it could well last for a long time. If you're single, a new and promising love partner may appear, perhaps someone who is older than you and successful in business. Enjoy your day.
That would be my Personal Hororscope that finds it's way into my in-box every morning. Again, I know only one or two of you would get a laugh from this given my history. If you don't get it, don't worry about it. If you do, well then theres' a laugh on me, enjoy it because I'm not the kind of person who takes or even brings on the 'Hits'.
PS: Yeah I know I miss quted the new Pat Green Song. I'll fix that next..
Whatever Tomorrow Brings.... Spiral Out.... Wave On
In a few short hours I'll be packing it up and heading out west-ward-way! Frio river camping. I haven't been camping in about 11 years. And yes that is not counting all the late nights dragging my feet around the cemeteries. Oddly enough, I think the last time I went and did the 'camping' thing was at the Frio River, and I'm told I had a good time, last time... I can't say I believe that, but never the less be it for one reason or another; I am so very excited about driving in the Jeep for 5 hours, spending the next 3 days/ 2 nights along the cool crisp river side, just me and a friend - escaping reality for one weekend. I only really get out on my own or with a friend for a weekend trip about Once a year! I so very much aim to change that. I mean day trips are a dime a dozen and provide much need get-a-way time, but sometimes 12 to 24 hours is just not enough. Maybe this will calm my reckless nature a bit - I doubt it, but at least for the few months ahead it will take me to save up the money to do anything about it, I mean that much would be most appreciated. All and all, I'm pretty sure I'll be dancing out of work come 5 O'Clock.
In other news; I know I have so much to catch up on.. on line and off line. And I hate to say it, but it looks like it might have to wait until Tuesday (see above para). Still believe it or not, but I may have actually come across an 'open door'. As elusive as these rare opportunities are and most certainly have been with me as of late, you can understand why I approach the possibility of an 'Open Door'.. and 'Opportunity Knock' with high caution. I mean no doubt it's what I've been looking for, but it's entirely possible that it's an 'open door' created with another in mind. And I'm sure we all have been in a situation where we persuade an Opportunity, a truly honest and good one, that unfortunately despite all the 'up sides' just does not work with our own personal invidual selves. In which case if it can be salvaged, must be passed along to the next more suitable occupant. - It's Ok, They Know Me Here... - Anyways, to cut through the playful word play - I wasn't having that much fun anyways - this opportunity falls in the field of Job/Career/Bussiness.. In the field of Photography. No, No I'm not about to pick up a camera or step in front of one, but my efficiency skills have been called upon, and for now - Why not? Now there is a possibility that this could lead to a real career.. I don't know if I'm ready for that just yet. I mean we are talking the prospect of eventual better pay, better hours, better work environment and so much more with the word better in front of them - Seriously I don't know how capable I am right not of handling something that could peg me down to one location for a while. I'm all for 'Resposability', but some lines must be drawn... I'm kidding of course... Slightly.
Aside from that, not to freak any readers out, but I know one or two of you might get a laugh at my expense from this:
Happiness reigns in a romantic relationship, as a commitment seems to be taking place, Lyndsey . It may be unspoken at the moment, but not for long. Your feeling of security and confidence in this relationship is not misplaced; it could well last for a long time. If you're single, a new and promising love partner may appear, perhaps someone who is older than you and successful in business. Enjoy your day.
That would be my Personal Hororscope that finds it's way into my in-box every morning. Again, I know only one or two of you would get a laugh from this given my history. If you don't get it, don't worry about it. If you do, well then theres' a laugh on me, enjoy it because I'm not the kind of person who takes or even brings on the 'Hits'.
PS: Yeah I know I miss quted the new Pat Green Song. I'll fix that next..
Whatever Tomorrow Brings.... Spiral Out.... Wave On
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