I'm still alive...
I actually start way to many of my posts that way.
So the democrats have taken the house(s') probably not a bad thing at all. Now I know this means a world of vetoes ahead, but honestly slowing down the workings of the presidential machine is again probably not a bad thing. I can't figure out how Rick Perry is our governor, but confusion is the price I pay for taking a backseat where politics are concerned over the past 2 years. Life is sort of once again stable, and I look at this coming year as a clean slate to get my feet wet again.
As far as my life.. Can't seem to locate a school that offers the programs I'm supposedly interested in.. Could be God's way of allowing me to actually try and do something that matters with my life... Seriously all I ask is that my life meets one of the following three - 1) I Help people 2)I entertain people or 3) I inspire people. Not even asking for my life path to meet 2 out of 3, just one. I can write from anywhere in the world, it's what I do when I'm not writing that's giving me so much trouble.
My personal life where friends are concerned is a bit rocky. But I'm sure it will pull through on all ends.. I hope.
Love Life.... Non existent, by choice of course. As of this moment I'm content giggling at the fact that Shelby of Sound and Fury sat next to me during the show for a brief moment. Don't knock it, until you check out his pictures, most girls would giggle too.
In writing, due to the fact I've encountered a few road blocks in both the thriller and the comedy I'm working on, I've began work on the first draft of the second edition to my Pirate soon to be saga. And I'm actually scratching down some article ideas that I'll be submitting different places with hope over the next year.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings...
well you know the rest....
Friday, November 10, 2006
Monday, October 16, 2006
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So I think I have just about everyone on board at my work, The theme for Halloween is Pirates. Some of us are going with a gangstar twist, some are going with a just a hat twist, me I'm going for a more traditional look.
If everything takes place according to plan, I'll post some pictures.
Arrggh.
My mom's site for her company the w.h.o. - Is giving me hell. I think, not now, but god, maybe in the next month i'm might break it down and start from scratch... oy.. Or I might hand it all over to my sister. Her work is a hell of allot better then mine and talent is talent and stress is stress, stress I don't need or really want right now. My life right now is simple, and I like that. Really not interested in changing that right now.
Now if only I can stop narriating my life with my inside voice and put some ink to paper, my life will be that much more fulfilled.
I have big plans for the first weekend of November, nothing but fun, fun and more fun. And there will be pictures from that.
If everything takes place according to plan, I'll post some pictures.
Arrggh.
My mom's site for her company the w.h.o. - Is giving me hell. I think, not now, but god, maybe in the next month i'm might break it down and start from scratch... oy.. Or I might hand it all over to my sister. Her work is a hell of allot better then mine and talent is talent and stress is stress, stress I don't need or really want right now. My life right now is simple, and I like that. Really not interested in changing that right now.
Now if only I can stop narriating my life with my inside voice and put some ink to paper, my life will be that much more fulfilled.
I have big plans for the first weekend of November, nothing but fun, fun and more fun. And there will be pictures from that.
Monday, October 09, 2006
moraly henderson
So I'm not sure if Henderson inspired the show Moral Oral, but I'm almost willing to bet money of the chance that it did. Something about this town, it draws you in and snaggs ya down. And all while reciting bible verses.
Still I've made some friends, and I know fun is only a short drive away on a Wedsenday night :P
So last night was fun, I've just started watching Scrubs, and it was an eppisode with Brendan Fraiser, and it's the one where he's in the entire eppisode, but at the end you discover, somewhere during the eppisode he's died and during the second half it's really his ghost floating about, one only Dr. Cox, the characters best buddy and or brother (couldn't really tell) can comunicate with. Needless to say after the fact that I've already had arrived at the end of a rality warping day to begin with, that show pushed my one glass of wine into a every last drop that bottel of Massina Hoff held kind of night.
I mean you would think the summers would really be the hardest time for me, but nope fall and winter are really really my downer months.
It's strange, because I feel like I'm doing alright in Henderson, but still failing at the 'Life' Thing, and even though I do not in any way understand the way my life has turned out and everything thta has happened in the corse of my 22 years soon to be 23 completed years on earth, I don't understand any of it, but I do accept it and I'm trying to work with it. Despite the fact that I am terrified of trodgue any path to far, the fear that it'll be another life cut short by something disatress. It's really no way to live, and yet it is exactly how I'm living now.
It'll be alright if I just keep focusing in on my work and my writtings.
Still I've made some friends, and I know fun is only a short drive away on a Wedsenday night :P
So last night was fun, I've just started watching Scrubs, and it was an eppisode with Brendan Fraiser, and it's the one where he's in the entire eppisode, but at the end you discover, somewhere during the eppisode he's died and during the second half it's really his ghost floating about, one only Dr. Cox, the characters best buddy and or brother (couldn't really tell) can comunicate with. Needless to say after the fact that I've already had arrived at the end of a rality warping day to begin with, that show pushed my one glass of wine into a every last drop that bottel of Massina Hoff held kind of night.
I mean you would think the summers would really be the hardest time for me, but nope fall and winter are really really my downer months.
It's strange, because I feel like I'm doing alright in Henderson, but still failing at the 'Life' Thing, and even though I do not in any way understand the way my life has turned out and everything thta has happened in the corse of my 22 years soon to be 23 completed years on earth, I don't understand any of it, but I do accept it and I'm trying to work with it. Despite the fact that I am terrified of trodgue any path to far, the fear that it'll be another life cut short by something disatress. It's really no way to live, and yet it is exactly how I'm living now.
It'll be alright if I just keep focusing in on my work and my writtings.
Friday, September 29, 2006
#3
Number 3
Yep - I didn't even see that coming!
Wow - Life is so up in the air.
Ok so I kind of think things with FL have been pushed back a bit. Not like I'm staling, because It's still so ON, but I'm going to use the time, if any that has been given me to do what I am already doing and that is that.
So some rummors have been circulating my small pin prick of a world, I might ( more so now that I might be sticking around a bit longer) be getting a store of my own to run for the owners of like almost all the subways of the general area I live in.
I've been in this job for 5 months; June, July, August, September and soon to be October, so not even a full 5 months!
Working my ass off or not that's pretty bitchin'
I mean given the fact that it's Henderson and y'know Subway....
Writting is going well, not as well as I liked. I've taken on some masive, and I mean legendary characters, and I'm in over my head, but on my days off I'm researching to sort of help me handle, the big bite I'm attempting to chew.
Either way, screw up or rock the furture world, my mom will like the story and that's really why I'm writing that one.
The Pirate tales, well 2nd and 3rd story are still rolling around in my head, I'm trying to behave, not putting pen to paper untill the 1st is finally 2nd draft typed form.
And the comedy, saveraly out of order, but once I string all the parts together correctly, the first cut should be a good one, and I'll pass that alnog to one or two others and blah blah blah, woof woof woof, if you get a copy of what I have so far for christmas, then all that time listening to me yak about it, wasn't a total waste.
Oh yeah, and It's early, but
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!
Yep - I didn't even see that coming!
Wow - Life is so up in the air.
Ok so I kind of think things with FL have been pushed back a bit. Not like I'm staling, because It's still so ON, but I'm going to use the time, if any that has been given me to do what I am already doing and that is that.
So some rummors have been circulating my small pin prick of a world, I might ( more so now that I might be sticking around a bit longer) be getting a store of my own to run for the owners of like almost all the subways of the general area I live in.
I've been in this job for 5 months; June, July, August, September and soon to be October, so not even a full 5 months!
Working my ass off or not that's pretty bitchin'
I mean given the fact that it's Henderson and y'know Subway....
Writting is going well, not as well as I liked. I've taken on some masive, and I mean legendary characters, and I'm in over my head, but on my days off I'm researching to sort of help me handle, the big bite I'm attempting to chew.
Either way, screw up or rock the furture world, my mom will like the story and that's really why I'm writing that one.
The Pirate tales, well 2nd and 3rd story are still rolling around in my head, I'm trying to behave, not putting pen to paper untill the 1st is finally 2nd draft typed form.
And the comedy, saveraly out of order, but once I string all the parts together correctly, the first cut should be a good one, and I'll pass that alnog to one or two others and blah blah blah, woof woof woof, if you get a copy of what I have so far for christmas, then all that time listening to me yak about it, wasn't a total waste.
Oh yeah, and It's early, but
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!
She is going to kill me
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
night life
Number 2... So far so good, I might even get a 4th out there. Who knows, you never can tell with my could stand to be a bit crazier life.
So, I have developed a very basic nightly retuine for my work nights.. work my ass off, come home soaking wet, get pissed that my mom has managed to keep both the dryer and washer tied up yet again, decied to either finish her work and start mine, or set my alarm two hours back so I can do mine in the morning. Trodge up the crooked stair case without hutring my self if I'm lucky. Now I either cook some mac and cheesee, or some top ramen, because if the food set aside for me is still there odds are it's a dish I don't like or it's one I love, and I was over looked in the rush (actually the funny thing is, if I'm in my room on my nights off, and she cooks dinner, she forgets me then too) Then I sit down with dinner and some drink spiked with either rum or with two sleeping aids ( I never mix) and settle in for back to back eppisodes of The Daily Show and the Colbert Report, figuring if the head line makes both shows and the chit chat at work, then it's probably true. So after I eat and I am thourghly drugged or drunk, and once again reminded why I ditched the wold of pollitics along with everything else in 'o4, I retire to my room, work on one or all 7 of my 7 porgects and crash in my bed that I never make because, There is just something so comforting in a messy bed. Lay there awake waiting on the sand man, questioning every thing I have done with my life up untill now and wondering what's next. Say a prayer. If I'm lucky I'll have a dream that's not a nightmare, if I'm really lucky that dream will envolve whatever hollywood hottie I'm into that week, the current two are Alan Tudyk and Adrine Brody (sp?) - can I pick'em or what?
That's my night life in a nutsheel, every now and then I'll go see a movie with friends or a show, One of these night's I'll dress up and head down to the bar scene in Longview, or to Kilgore for the bands. Most any time I have days off back to back, which is almost never I'm in Houston, seeing the tall buildings and arts that litter our streets there and I am reminded of who I really am, and I can only hope where ever I end up next I can find that there aswell.
The plans I have set aside for May are such huge gambles, and I'll probably come up short, I'm very bad at taking risks, always seem to take the wrong ones, and in all actuallty I could do so much better staying here at least through '07 - getting my self back on track, but wheres the fun in a stable life like that?
I'm scared to death, but not like I've been batting a thousand so far.
wahtever tomorrow brings
spiral out
wave on
So, I have developed a very basic nightly retuine for my work nights.. work my ass off, come home soaking wet, get pissed that my mom has managed to keep both the dryer and washer tied up yet again, decied to either finish her work and start mine, or set my alarm two hours back so I can do mine in the morning. Trodge up the crooked stair case without hutring my self if I'm lucky. Now I either cook some mac and cheesee, or some top ramen, because if the food set aside for me is still there odds are it's a dish I don't like or it's one I love, and I was over looked in the rush (actually the funny thing is, if I'm in my room on my nights off, and she cooks dinner, she forgets me then too) Then I sit down with dinner and some drink spiked with either rum or with two sleeping aids ( I never mix) and settle in for back to back eppisodes of The Daily Show and the Colbert Report, figuring if the head line makes both shows and the chit chat at work, then it's probably true. So after I eat and I am thourghly drugged or drunk, and once again reminded why I ditched the wold of pollitics along with everything else in 'o4, I retire to my room, work on one or all 7 of my 7 porgects and crash in my bed that I never make because, There is just something so comforting in a messy bed. Lay there awake waiting on the sand man, questioning every thing I have done with my life up untill now and wondering what's next. Say a prayer. If I'm lucky I'll have a dream that's not a nightmare, if I'm really lucky that dream will envolve whatever hollywood hottie I'm into that week, the current two are Alan Tudyk and Adrine Brody (sp?) - can I pick'em or what?
That's my night life in a nutsheel, every now and then I'll go see a movie with friends or a show, One of these night's I'll dress up and head down to the bar scene in Longview, or to Kilgore for the bands. Most any time I have days off back to back, which is almost never I'm in Houston, seeing the tall buildings and arts that litter our streets there and I am reminded of who I really am, and I can only hope where ever I end up next I can find that there aswell.
The plans I have set aside for May are such huge gambles, and I'll probably come up short, I'm very bad at taking risks, always seem to take the wrong ones, and in all actuallty I could do so much better staying here at least through '07 - getting my self back on track, but wheres the fun in a stable life like that?
I'm scared to death, but not like I've been batting a thousand so far.
wahtever tomorrow brings
spiral out
wave on
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Standing on ground I can't trust
I'm trying to fit in 3 posts a month... so I guess this is 1 of 3 for september!
Oh september how I loath thee!
Started off the month with a bang, had to come into Houston and relive some of 04's less fortunate events, mostly dealing with Russell, which brings around the memories of Happy... I can pin point the last week my life made sense and that's really sad, I have pictures of the last night life was truly perfect amongst my 4 favoriet people.
Call me crazy, but a girl shouldn't be able to do that.
I also saw Hollywood Land (loved it) and Little Miss Sunshine (loved in more).
Currently I have 7, count that out, 7 projects going right now. Three novels, Two Short stories, One short Film Script, and One Full Feature Script. All Going at once and a hand full of songs I'm finessing. So I'm bussy and writting keeps me happy.
I have some real good friends keeping me grounded and around.
I have earned another promotion at SubWay, this time Night Manager, even jumped a level. It's allot to take in and and it's stress on my already buckled shoulders.
And Rascal Flatts' STAND seems to be one of the songs themed to my life, along side almost the entire album of Matchbox 20's Mad Season.
And I'm still in line to move to FL in May, and from there I have no idea, I guess where ever my work sales... god I hope it sales.
I'm adjusting to Henderson, doing pretty well. Not taking to much more on then I can carry. Just trying to keep moving on.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings....
Spiral Out...
And Wave On...
(god I miss him... I miss my life... I Miss him)
Oh september how I loath thee!
Started off the month with a bang, had to come into Houston and relive some of 04's less fortunate events, mostly dealing with Russell, which brings around the memories of Happy... I can pin point the last week my life made sense and that's really sad, I have pictures of the last night life was truly perfect amongst my 4 favoriet people.
Call me crazy, but a girl shouldn't be able to do that.
I also saw Hollywood Land (loved it) and Little Miss Sunshine (loved in more).
Currently I have 7, count that out, 7 projects going right now. Three novels, Two Short stories, One short Film Script, and One Full Feature Script. All Going at once and a hand full of songs I'm finessing. So I'm bussy and writting keeps me happy.
I have some real good friends keeping me grounded and around.
I have earned another promotion at SubWay, this time Night Manager, even jumped a level. It's allot to take in and and it's stress on my already buckled shoulders.
And Rascal Flatts' STAND seems to be one of the songs themed to my life, along side almost the entire album of Matchbox 20's Mad Season.
And I'm still in line to move to FL in May, and from there I have no idea, I guess where ever my work sales... god I hope it sales.
I'm adjusting to Henderson, doing pretty well. Not taking to much more on then I can carry. Just trying to keep moving on.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings....
Spiral Out...
And Wave On...
(god I miss him... I miss my life... I Miss him)
Monday, August 14, 2006
Hells Hard To Find
Henderson... maybe not the bible belt of texas, but deffinetly a wanna-be.
I'm not doing the Bus Drving thing. I never wanted to, and so it means a I will have only 2 grand instead of 5 to move to FL with, so what... The sub-way job is a decent job and I don't mind it at all. Plus it keeps me focused on the more importent things in life, like my stories and learning how to write shorts and getting back to the me I love, and helping out allot more around the house. Good Stuff, Good Times.
I'm not fitting in to well, but I'm feeling better. I'm here for a reason, I think that reason is to help me learn to manage my finacise, with what little I actually have, this is good. Gives me more time to work on my internet design skills. And I don't plan to enter into any relationships, knowing they'll only end in May, I'm staying focused, I am here to learn how to focus and balance. Some spend time with monks, some land their selves in eastern moutian prison camps, I - Well I set my bags down in middle of no where east Texas.
I'm doing alright.. It could be better, But it's not so bad, and I have allot of ideas I want to get on here and on myspace, and on paper, so I hope soon ya'll will see a big change in me, for the better.
It's hard, and scarey as hell. And I probably wont make it, but I'm going to try, what else do I have to do with my time?
I'm not doing the Bus Drving thing. I never wanted to, and so it means a I will have only 2 grand instead of 5 to move to FL with, so what... The sub-way job is a decent job and I don't mind it at all. Plus it keeps me focused on the more importent things in life, like my stories and learning how to write shorts and getting back to the me I love, and helping out allot more around the house. Good Stuff, Good Times.
I'm not fitting in to well, but I'm feeling better. I'm here for a reason, I think that reason is to help me learn to manage my finacise, with what little I actually have, this is good. Gives me more time to work on my internet design skills. And I don't plan to enter into any relationships, knowing they'll only end in May, I'm staying focused, I am here to learn how to focus and balance. Some spend time with monks, some land their selves in eastern moutian prison camps, I - Well I set my bags down in middle of no where east Texas.
I'm doing alright.. It could be better, But it's not so bad, and I have allot of ideas I want to get on here and on myspace, and on paper, so I hope soon ya'll will see a big change in me, for the better.
It's hard, and scarey as hell. And I probably wont make it, but I'm going to try, what else do I have to do with my time?
Friday, July 21, 2006
Speel check is acting up, so hold in there
Ok, I did the houston trip and I've been back to the middle of nowhere for a while now, Still working at subway, it's a good mindless job, I get allot of thinking done, and I've been hired on as a bus driver here, so between the two jobs, If I do move to FL in may, I'll have agood amount of money set aside to do so with. If my springbreak lines up with Nik's I think I'll be tagging along to FL to fill out applications and smile pretty for Disney. If you have to work for $7 and hour, might as well work in the happiest place on earth.
Back to the thinking thing, It's going good, next paycheck I'll have that computer up to speed and start on the second draft of the first novel (I know couldn't be more behind if I tried) and I have the Outline for the Second book, which I think will blow the first book away, sort of like Pirates2 blew away Pirates1, but thats just my opinion. And I have some vague ideas for the Third, so even if this isn't published, someone, maybe my kids, maybe my nephews will enjoy it... or if nothing else it keeps me free of idle time. Still it's really really good, I mean I'm at a point that I can't wait to find out what happens to the characters, that's a good sign right? I mean most writers really always remain somewhat disappointed in their own writings, I normally do.... I guess at the end of the day, I think Russell would have really enjoyed these storys, guess that and the fact that it's keeping my sanity is all that really matters... Still these kids are so cool, I hope the world thinks so too.
Anwyas I have to go get ready for work and cook diner... I'll keep up more now that i'm settled in more.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings, Spiral Out , Wave On
Back to the thinking thing, It's going good, next paycheck I'll have that computer up to speed and start on the second draft of the first novel (I know couldn't be more behind if I tried) and I have the Outline for the Second book, which I think will blow the first book away, sort of like Pirates2 blew away Pirates1, but thats just my opinion. And I have some vague ideas for the Third, so even if this isn't published, someone, maybe my kids, maybe my nephews will enjoy it... or if nothing else it keeps me free of idle time. Still it's really really good, I mean I'm at a point that I can't wait to find out what happens to the characters, that's a good sign right? I mean most writers really always remain somewhat disappointed in their own writings, I normally do.... I guess at the end of the day, I think Russell would have really enjoyed these storys, guess that and the fact that it's keeping my sanity is all that really matters... Still these kids are so cool, I hope the world thinks so too.
Anwyas I have to go get ready for work and cook diner... I'll keep up more now that i'm settled in more.
Whatever Tomorrow Brings, Spiral Out , Wave On
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
It's late, I'm tired and I hate it here
Ok, so the move *shivers* went well, and by well I mean we all didn't crash a die on the drive up here, almost, but no such luck. Though the computer did, and that's why I haven't been able to get online, because yes the computer died, and my other two computers, well one is still partly locked away in storage back in houston and the other, turns out no one on earth can work with or on Mac's. A universal computer mind you, but no one seems to know anything about them. Seriously the guys at the computer store were looking at my lap top like I just handed them a sega master system. And no my G3 power book is no where near as old as some of the junk they had laying around. Needless to say I gently took my laptop away from them and have decided to hold off on getting it set up untill next october when I will be frequently in and out of Houston, you know that place where they have shops that specialize in Macs.
That's not even the half of it - oh no.
I've been here like what, 3 weeks almost, and it becoming more and more evident to me that any chance I had at fitting in here went right out the gurham window when I went out on a friday night in my wrap pants..... I swear with the looks I was getting from this fashionably challeneged town, I'm surprised I'm not being burned as we speak. Of course that's just first imprestions, I haven't actually been inspired to try again. At least not with out my brother and his friend there to protect me from the riots. That is if there was enough people to properly riot.
I'm wotrking at sub-way *shivers* Just until I can find a real job. Hopefully that will be a job that just has the peskey intial drug test to worry with. I'm not a user, but I don't want to have to worry about how much fun I can have on saturday all because of the work place I have to return to on monday.
Starting the 6th of july I'll be returning to Houston for a long weekend, I have to be in town for Pirates and the first offical gathering of the little 'cult' I've been working on. Hopefully I'll recouperate enough that I can actually bring my self to return to this East Texas world.
It's just till may or untill the rally against me.
Y'know honestly, a little physcial fun could make this situation a hell of allot more barable.
Aint had nothin twixt my nethers that wernt run on batteries for nearly a year now.
Even Kaylee evnetually bagged simon.....
Wheres my simon?
That's not even the half of it - oh no.
I've been here like what, 3 weeks almost, and it becoming more and more evident to me that any chance I had at fitting in here went right out the gurham window when I went out on a friday night in my wrap pants..... I swear with the looks I was getting from this fashionably challeneged town, I'm surprised I'm not being burned as we speak. Of course that's just first imprestions, I haven't actually been inspired to try again. At least not with out my brother and his friend there to protect me from the riots. That is if there was enough people to properly riot.
I'm wotrking at sub-way *shivers* Just until I can find a real job. Hopefully that will be a job that just has the peskey intial drug test to worry with. I'm not a user, but I don't want to have to worry about how much fun I can have on saturday all because of the work place I have to return to on monday.
Starting the 6th of july I'll be returning to Houston for a long weekend, I have to be in town for Pirates and the first offical gathering of the little 'cult' I've been working on. Hopefully I'll recouperate enough that I can actually bring my self to return to this East Texas world.
It's just till may or untill the rally against me.
Y'know honestly, a little physcial fun could make this situation a hell of allot more barable.
Aint had nothin twixt my nethers that wernt run on batteries for nearly a year now.
Even Kaylee evnetually bagged simon.....
Wheres my simon?
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
And you think the Dan Brown pissed ya offf?
Ever get that feeling deep inside, that your about to unleash a masive cult on an unexpecting world?
No?
Must be just me then, oh well....
Now, seriously all joking aside, my friends and I may have just struck creative gold, I mean we really got a good one here. And we'll be using this summer to iron out all the kinks and make it into a smooth running ring of religious bull shit.
And though I don't know what all the details are, or when or how this will take place I can asure you there will be stickers...
Lots and lots of stickers...
Honestly, I have to have something to do inbetween working, writing and of course watching Pirates 2.
It's creative and a challenge, something keep my nice and sane.
No?
Must be just me then, oh well....
Now, seriously all joking aside, my friends and I may have just struck creative gold, I mean we really got a good one here. And we'll be using this summer to iron out all the kinks and make it into a smooth running ring of religious bull shit.
And though I don't know what all the details are, or when or how this will take place I can asure you there will be stickers...
Lots and lots of stickers...
Honestly, I have to have something to do inbetween working, writing and of course watching Pirates 2.
It's creative and a challenge, something keep my nice and sane.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
X3
Oh and by the way, as far as X-Men 3... The movie I waited like what, 5 hours for in line... the movie I have been waiting to see since I heard Ben Foster was playing Angel, the movie I have wanted to see since I saw him, as Angel in the top left hand corner of all the posters...
I really don't want to talk about it, check back on that subject in a few months or so...
*sighs heavy*
Maybe 5 or 6 months....
I really don't want to talk about it, check back on that subject in a few months or so...
*sighs heavy*
Maybe 5 or 6 months....
Ok, I have seen the movie twice.. and read the book once...
And just for fun I have even scanned through some of the 'response' books if you will, one in particular being... "A quest For Answers - The Da Vinci Code" by Josh McDowell.... haven't heard of it? Well I'm sure you can stop by almost any local church and they'll probably be more then happy to point you in it's direction. The purpose of this lil' book is to help separate the facts of the Da Vinci Code, from the fiction... Personally I think the book it's self handles that well enough, more so if you buy one of the hard back version with all the lovely little notes, but hey as humans we love a good deal, so for most of us if we own a copy of the Da Vinci code, it's probably the $5 paperback copy... but moving on... If the churches and Christian leaders want to publish these little books to help inform the masses, more power to them, I see no real hard in the concept... what I do find to be just a little off with these pass around tell alls, are the fact that like the one stated above, most are presenting their points in a fictional format!
I don't know about the rest of you, but this is really starting to give me a headache!
I can't say I agree with the ideas that are being tossed about in the controversy, but I will say for the most part I can go way, way out on that tiny limb and understand where exactly every one is coming from on the mater. Personally, if I were to be offended by any of it, I would find the book a bit more offensive then the movie, I mean I have to say, Ron Howard and his crew covered their asses well. Honestly at the end of it all, when push comes to shove on this argument, I think no one is going to get anywhere any time soon until we pull out of the Fiction Formats and take a walk of the wild sides of Fact and History. - I think it could be fun.
Can't wait to see what happens when a book & movie are made about the lesser known grail legend, involving John The Baptist head, morbid, maccob, yet intriguing.
If nothing else, the cinematogrophy is excellent, 2 thumbs way way up! Sophie isn't a red head, hell the only red head in the movie is Marry and that it's self is still only in the painting, and I hate to say it, but for the first time since.. well possibly the first time ever I actually find Tom Hanks attractive, though I credit most of the attraction too the smooth lighting, subtle shadows and of course the character of Robert Langdon is practically a dream guy in my book, but hey I'm one strange cat at the end of the day. . . still meow.
And just for fun I have even scanned through some of the 'response' books if you will, one in particular being... "A quest For Answers - The Da Vinci Code" by Josh McDowell.... haven't heard of it? Well I'm sure you can stop by almost any local church and they'll probably be more then happy to point you in it's direction. The purpose of this lil' book is to help separate the facts of the Da Vinci Code, from the fiction... Personally I think the book it's self handles that well enough, more so if you buy one of the hard back version with all the lovely little notes, but hey as humans we love a good deal, so for most of us if we own a copy of the Da Vinci code, it's probably the $5 paperback copy... but moving on... If the churches and Christian leaders want to publish these little books to help inform the masses, more power to them, I see no real hard in the concept... what I do find to be just a little off with these pass around tell alls, are the fact that like the one stated above, most are presenting their points in a fictional format!
I don't know about the rest of you, but this is really starting to give me a headache!
I can't say I agree with the ideas that are being tossed about in the controversy, but I will say for the most part I can go way, way out on that tiny limb and understand where exactly every one is coming from on the mater. Personally, if I were to be offended by any of it, I would find the book a bit more offensive then the movie, I mean I have to say, Ron Howard and his crew covered their asses well. Honestly at the end of it all, when push comes to shove on this argument, I think no one is going to get anywhere any time soon until we pull out of the Fiction Formats and take a walk of the wild sides of Fact and History. - I think it could be fun.
Can't wait to see what happens when a book & movie are made about the lesser known grail legend, involving John The Baptist head, morbid, maccob, yet intriguing.
If nothing else, the cinematogrophy is excellent, 2 thumbs way way up! Sophie isn't a red head, hell the only red head in the movie is Marry and that it's self is still only in the painting, and I hate to say it, but for the first time since.. well possibly the first time ever I actually find Tom Hanks attractive, though I credit most of the attraction too the smooth lighting, subtle shadows and of course the character of Robert Langdon is practically a dream guy in my book, but hey I'm one strange cat at the end of the day. . . still meow.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
The world is really starting to piss me off
Ok, so I'm going to see the DaVinci Code tomorrow, so I guess this might become a two parter, I hope nothing of what I am about to do/say is too stupid...
Ok, so I am a Christian, and somewhere between the Passion of The Christ and I guess the start of this book becoming a movie, I kind of feel I'm making the transition to becoming a more defined sort of person/soul by trying out the life and ideals of the Nostics, it really fits the person I've always been when it comes my personal faith and belief's. But anyways, back to the as why, is really because Christians, and there teachers or leaders or front men so to speak are pissing me off.
The way I see it, is you can know the bible from cover to cover and it'll mean the world to you and to your god and that's about it. More so in today's society. In the world to day it seems facts and history mean more then anything else any more, so unless your a archeologist, Astronomer, or explorer or whatever who's devoting their lives and careers to the search of truth and justification, the least you could do is learn the history of the book it's self. Honestly in my own beliefs, I feel the Bible is all that really is to be concerned with, everything from how to win a battle, to how to secure a spot for yourself eternally is with in it's pages - It's a pretty nifty study guide, but I in no way believe it's in tact, hell history, and what the world has uncovered over the past 50 years or more has proven that. So instead of having theses long drawn out sermians on what is so wrong with the DaVinci Code and the ideals it places before the world ( keep in mind it's fiction, if it helps you sleep at night) maybe that energy would be better served in lessons of The Bibles origins, if your willing to take the bible as this magical booked dropped upon the earth, then honestly your no better then the Roman Catholics of old. In which case why bother with a Protestant church to begin with ?
The bottom line is, if you are so shallow in your beliefs that the idea that Jesus was married and spawned children, is enough to send your life into a frenzy, then this book or any other should be the least of your worries. And if you still cling to the idea that Marry Magdalene was a whore, then you might want to add some refresher bible courses along with some history courses to your list of things to do this summer.
God gave your free will and fredom of mind, try not to insult God, by making a total waist of such a fine gift.
Ok, so I am a Christian, and somewhere between the Passion of The Christ and I guess the start of this book becoming a movie, I kind of feel I'm making the transition to becoming a more defined sort of person/soul by trying out the life and ideals of the Nostics, it really fits the person I've always been when it comes my personal faith and belief's. But anyways, back to the as why, is really because Christians, and there teachers or leaders or front men so to speak are pissing me off.
The way I see it, is you can know the bible from cover to cover and it'll mean the world to you and to your god and that's about it. More so in today's society. In the world to day it seems facts and history mean more then anything else any more, so unless your a archeologist, Astronomer, or explorer or whatever who's devoting their lives and careers to the search of truth and justification, the least you could do is learn the history of the book it's self. Honestly in my own beliefs, I feel the Bible is all that really is to be concerned with, everything from how to win a battle, to how to secure a spot for yourself eternally is with in it's pages - It's a pretty nifty study guide, but I in no way believe it's in tact, hell history, and what the world has uncovered over the past 50 years or more has proven that. So instead of having theses long drawn out sermians on what is so wrong with the DaVinci Code and the ideals it places before the world ( keep in mind it's fiction, if it helps you sleep at night) maybe that energy would be better served in lessons of The Bibles origins, if your willing to take the bible as this magical booked dropped upon the earth, then honestly your no better then the Roman Catholics of old. In which case why bother with a Protestant church to begin with ?
The bottom line is, if you are so shallow in your beliefs that the idea that Jesus was married and spawned children, is enough to send your life into a frenzy, then this book or any other should be the least of your worries. And if you still cling to the idea that Marry Magdalene was a whore, then you might want to add some refresher bible courses along with some history courses to your list of things to do this summer.
God gave your free will and fredom of mind, try not to insult God, by making a total waist of such a fine gift.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Refer to my last post as to why I haven't been around. I thought things would get easier, silliest me.
I'm sure they will grow easier after the move... If I play my cards right... gotta tell ya, I am such a bad gambler.
So, the best way to get a hold of me, yes I'm a sell out.... is on my space, my e-mail is Sterben_84@hotmail.com and my handle on my space ( I think) is PhirePhyler.. I don't know, I feel like an alien, kind of like it, keeps me real. Don't get me wrong, I'm still keeping this up here... actually This tiny corner of the infinite universe should get more interesting. If My Space serves me socially, this can become an out let for everything else.
I plan to post a few thoughts I have on the Religious worlds current position and the truly Dumbasses that some of our top religious leaders are making of themselves... and if there's time some rants on the Future of the US's political powers... so get ready to find out where and how well I'm acquainted with the world around me, try not to point and laugh to hard, after all I'm only just now finally getting back in the game - once I warm up, things should get interesting, if not down right entertaining.
Lucky Ya'll
Untill then: this is me giving in and doing what I can with what I am handed
I'm sure they will grow easier after the move... If I play my cards right... gotta tell ya, I am such a bad gambler.
So, the best way to get a hold of me, yes I'm a sell out.... is on my space, my e-mail is Sterben_84@hotmail.com and my handle on my space ( I think) is PhirePhyler.. I don't know, I feel like an alien, kind of like it, keeps me real. Don't get me wrong, I'm still keeping this up here... actually This tiny corner of the infinite universe should get more interesting. If My Space serves me socially, this can become an out let for everything else.
I plan to post a few thoughts I have on the Religious worlds current position and the truly Dumbasses that some of our top religious leaders are making of themselves... and if there's time some rants on the Future of the US's political powers... so get ready to find out where and how well I'm acquainted with the world around me, try not to point and laugh to hard, after all I'm only just now finally getting back in the game - once I warm up, things should get interesting, if not down right entertaining.
Lucky Ya'll
Untill then: this is me giving in and doing what I can with what I am handed
Saturday, May 06, 2006
WOW....
So this is why I haven't been online much: I'm beginning to think my sister has planed her daily routine just to piss me off, online all day, sleeps mostly when I'm at work or when I am asleep myself.
BUT WAIT There's more: We sold the house, and bought a house... it's in Henderson which sucks, but it's on 3 freakin acres, and is covered in fruit trees almost enough to call it an orchard, and I think my uncle is going to start a nursery out there, so his grape vines will have time to grow into lean mean wine making machines while he waits to buy his own property eastwardway. Which means when I wake up in my own room, and after spending hours in my private study, I can stroll through my own personal door out on to the family deck to watch the sun set over the land, over the trees, over the baby vineyard, over the pond, located on the neighbor's property, and then gaze up at the stars while sipping wine or my cosmopolitan while pondering the mysteries of the universe.... Wait did I mention I have my own Study! My own room to create, it's something I have wanted since I first put the pen to paper... it's a trade off, see I move out to the middle of no-where and I in return get my study.
AND EVEN MORE: I saw the movie BENCHWARMERS... but as good as the movie was, and believe me it was, the extended preview for X-Men 3 was even better... So for all my complaints about there being no Gambit and for all my issues with the character relations being as they were is the first two movies being yanked through a meat grinder, all that is forgotten and forgiven, because I applaud the writers and the man or woman who pulled the cast together (accept for Kitty Pryde's actor, what were you thinking?!?) because if that trailor was anything like the movie, it shows that these writers know or know of the stories that have littered their way over the X-Men universe! Some like the inspiration for the movies Phoenix are huge story lines that are still being referenced and bought up like crazy, others are more illusive and harder to pin point and should have probably been forgotten, but hey they are there! And it's better for the movie to be about the crap the comics came up with then whatever the director has pulled out the almost blue sky.... hell in the end, who am I kidding, It's Hough Jackman and Ben Foster (of who I am a long, long long time... I'm talking Fast Forward fan of) together on one giant screen... hell it's Ben Foster on screen in an X-Men movie, I could just faint right here... now if Jewell could just get work again.
I have less then a month left in katy, and though my trips back to Houston will be frequent ( I mean have you seen all the movies coming out this year??) My time left seems so short.
BTW I'll work on the back ground color more next week...
So this is why I haven't been online much: I'm beginning to think my sister has planed her daily routine just to piss me off, online all day, sleeps mostly when I'm at work or when I am asleep myself.
BUT WAIT There's more: We sold the house, and bought a house... it's in Henderson which sucks, but it's on 3 freakin acres, and is covered in fruit trees almost enough to call it an orchard, and I think my uncle is going to start a nursery out there, so his grape vines will have time to grow into lean mean wine making machines while he waits to buy his own property eastwardway. Which means when I wake up in my own room, and after spending hours in my private study, I can stroll through my own personal door out on to the family deck to watch the sun set over the land, over the trees, over the baby vineyard, over the pond, located on the neighbor's property, and then gaze up at the stars while sipping wine or my cosmopolitan while pondering the mysteries of the universe.... Wait did I mention I have my own Study! My own room to create, it's something I have wanted since I first put the pen to paper... it's a trade off, see I move out to the middle of no-where and I in return get my study.
AND EVEN MORE: I saw the movie BENCHWARMERS... but as good as the movie was, and believe me it was, the extended preview for X-Men 3 was even better... So for all my complaints about there being no Gambit and for all my issues with the character relations being as they were is the first two movies being yanked through a meat grinder, all that is forgotten and forgiven, because I applaud the writers and the man or woman who pulled the cast together (accept for Kitty Pryde's actor, what were you thinking?!?) because if that trailor was anything like the movie, it shows that these writers know or know of the stories that have littered their way over the X-Men universe! Some like the inspiration for the movies Phoenix are huge story lines that are still being referenced and bought up like crazy, others are more illusive and harder to pin point and should have probably been forgotten, but hey they are there! And it's better for the movie to be about the crap the comics came up with then whatever the director has pulled out the almost blue sky.... hell in the end, who am I kidding, It's Hough Jackman and Ben Foster (of who I am a long, long long time... I'm talking Fast Forward fan of) together on one giant screen... hell it's Ben Foster on screen in an X-Men movie, I could just faint right here... now if Jewell could just get work again.
I have less then a month left in katy, and though my trips back to Houston will be frequent ( I mean have you seen all the movies coming out this year??) My time left seems so short.
BTW I'll work on the back ground color more next week...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Why aren't ya'll listening?
Take my love.
Take my land.
Take me where I cannot stand.
I don't care, I'm still free.
You can't take the sky from me.
Take me out to the black.
Tell 'em I ain't comin' back.
Burn the land And boil the sea.
You can't take the sky from me.
Have no place I can be since I found Serenity.
But you can't take the sky from me.
- Joss Whedon
Take my land.
Take me where I cannot stand.
I don't care, I'm still free.
You can't take the sky from me.
Take me out to the black.
Tell 'em I ain't comin' back.
Burn the land And boil the sea.
You can't take the sky from me.
Have no place I can be since I found Serenity.
But you can't take the sky from me.
- Joss Whedon
Monday, April 24, 2006
"If you can't be with the one you love, honey.."
(every body!)
"LOVE THE ONE YOU'RE WITH! Love the one you're with"
It's a great sentiment, if the one you're with knows you exist.
If you have taken my advice and gone out and at least rented Serenity and given it a spin in the dvd player, or your favorite gaming station not owned by Nintendo, then your probably familiar with Kaylee and Simon.. unless your just like Simon in which case your probably still so busy multitasking and maybe not even past the title of the post. ( and in which case, more so if you evern remotely resemble Simon.. or Malcolm.. or Walsh.. hell I'll even settle for Jayne right now, e-mail me and end this misery.. lol) But moving on... I can't say I relate the most to Kaylee, not sure who I relate most with, but I do know I feel for the girl, I know I've been in her shoes before, somewhat currently in and possibly will be again, despite the outcome of my current situation. And I know in the end she gets her guy and I know in the end, I and all the other women in the world like me will get a.. not necessarily the guy, but a guy who in the end is probably better for them after all. Though this in no way is me saying settle for what's their, by all means have standards, I know I do.
Just hang in there and guys ( and in some cases the role can reveres, I feel for you men out there too) wake up and smell the coffee, because even if she's not waiting for you, someone else is, so find her or go for broke, and take a chance on the most beautiful girl next to you.. could make your day and her's too.
PEACE OUT
"LOVE THE ONE YOU'RE WITH! Love the one you're with"
It's a great sentiment, if the one you're with knows you exist.
If you have taken my advice and gone out and at least rented Serenity and given it a spin in the dvd player, or your favorite gaming station not owned by Nintendo, then your probably familiar with Kaylee and Simon.. unless your just like Simon in which case your probably still so busy multitasking and maybe not even past the title of the post. ( and in which case, more so if you evern remotely resemble Simon.. or Malcolm.. or Walsh.. hell I'll even settle for Jayne right now, e-mail me and end this misery.. lol) But moving on... I can't say I relate the most to Kaylee, not sure who I relate most with, but I do know I feel for the girl, I know I've been in her shoes before, somewhat currently in and possibly will be again, despite the outcome of my current situation. And I know in the end she gets her guy and I know in the end, I and all the other women in the world like me will get a.. not necessarily the guy, but a guy who in the end is probably better for them after all. Though this in no way is me saying settle for what's their, by all means have standards, I know I do.
Just hang in there and guys ( and in some cases the role can reveres, I feel for you men out there too) wake up and smell the coffee, because even if she's not waiting for you, someone else is, so find her or go for broke, and take a chance on the most beautiful girl next to you.. could make your day and her's too.
PEACE OUT
Sunday, April 23, 2006
one hangover and a hero later...
I spend yesterday - Saturday - recovering from what wa a relatively mild hangover considering the alcohol consumption from the night before. And I spent it with friends, Good Friends.. Nik, Batman and A. I even managed to squeeze in another 2 episodes of FireFly... which by the way Joss Whedon is my new hero..
Let me explain..
Every few years I take on a new... well idol isn't the right word for it, but close enough... it used to be Warren Ellis.... and now it's quickly becoming Whedon... well at least with Firefly, can't really say I'm a fan of much anything else he's done... like Warren Ellis who gave me hope for the future of Comic Books and the future I could one day have in said genera... Whedon gives me hope as a writer in general. More so as a Character writer, which when you really get down to the heart of who I am and what my strong points are as a writer, that would be it. The down side is now revisiting that story line I gave my life to in high school, refining. But with the help of Nik, I'm at least looking at it with the highlight of an actor's perspective, so at least the characters are being polished up instead of fully revamped, which is usually the case.
And I love having the friends that I have, like take yesterday for example... I sit down with Nik, A, and Batman... ok so first off, when Batman watches something, (at least I hope this is whats actually happening) as a tech he's going to watch it from a more mechanical perspective... Nik, an Actor, well you can guess her perspective... me a writer, well duh a writing perspective... and A, well she's what you can call an informed Viewer, she's not a stupid couch slum, slave to the TV forever and eternity, she enjoys tv when she dose stop and sit down to watch certain shows, she's observant and watched the full picture and takes a bit from each aspect.. If Matty were around we'd have the Director/Producer/graphics... but in my world that would be the perfect world.. at least given the circumstances.
Well when it's all said and done I can leave you with two bit of some decent advice...
1) it's amazing what you learn when you listen..
2) Go buy Firefly.. you be glad you did....
Let me explain..
Every few years I take on a new... well idol isn't the right word for it, but close enough... it used to be Warren Ellis.... and now it's quickly becoming Whedon... well at least with Firefly, can't really say I'm a fan of much anything else he's done... like Warren Ellis who gave me hope for the future of Comic Books and the future I could one day have in said genera... Whedon gives me hope as a writer in general. More so as a Character writer, which when you really get down to the heart of who I am and what my strong points are as a writer, that would be it. The down side is now revisiting that story line I gave my life to in high school, refining. But with the help of Nik, I'm at least looking at it with the highlight of an actor's perspective, so at least the characters are being polished up instead of fully revamped, which is usually the case.
And I love having the friends that I have, like take yesterday for example... I sit down with Nik, A, and Batman... ok so first off, when Batman watches something, (at least I hope this is whats actually happening) as a tech he's going to watch it from a more mechanical perspective... Nik, an Actor, well you can guess her perspective... me a writer, well duh a writing perspective... and A, well she's what you can call an informed Viewer, she's not a stupid couch slum, slave to the TV forever and eternity, she enjoys tv when she dose stop and sit down to watch certain shows, she's observant and watched the full picture and takes a bit from each aspect.. If Matty were around we'd have the Director/Producer/graphics... but in my world that would be the perfect world.. at least given the circumstances.
Well when it's all said and done I can leave you with two bit of some decent advice...
1) it's amazing what you learn when you listen..
2) Go buy Firefly.. you be glad you did....
Friday, April 21, 2006
Drinks all around
I passed...
I actually passed...
I am now eligible to make almost $10 an hour
feels decent
Cheers Darlings....
I actually passed...
I am now eligible to make almost $10 an hour
feels decent
Cheers Darlings....
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
*cough*
Sick again.. something new this time, same symptoms, but different order - gotta keep things interesting...
I have my drivers test this Friday... *shivers*
Finally got a real offer on the house... so if it pulls through I guess I'll be living else where, at least during the summer, can't afford my own place until fall....
And I just saw the new Astros Monopoly.. 44 Roy O' is one of the Boardwalk blues... yeah I know I'm a little shocked too, I didn't even think he'd make the reds' good to know there are other fans like me and more devoted out there. So yeah - obviously I'll be buying that next pay check... :D
I have my drivers test this Friday... *shivers*
Finally got a real offer on the house... so if it pulls through I guess I'll be living else where, at least during the summer, can't afford my own place until fall....
And I just saw the new Astros Monopoly.. 44 Roy O' is one of the Boardwalk blues... yeah I know I'm a little shocked too, I didn't even think he'd make the reds' good to know there are other fans like me and more devoted out there. So yeah - obviously I'll be buying that next pay check... :D
Friday, April 14, 2006
light up
So I went to see Thankyou For Smoking... money well spent.
Aaron Eckhart is wonderful as always... along with an equally stunning cast, not at all brought down by Katie's performance... Amazing I know, she usually destroys everything she signs on too. Aaron is also among what seems to be an ok cast for the Black Dahila movie. A personal fave of mine. I have the doll and everything. Plus I saw the trailer for the new Duchovny, good to know he's working seriously again, not that I didn't love love love House Of D. Trust The Man looks interesting and somewhat humorous. And as most of my oldest friends know Mr. Duchovny is among my top 100's list of Hollywood Hotties, holding a special place in my memories as one of my first movie star crushes... the rest of the girls may have had Dawson or whatever Creek hanging on they're walls, but oh no not me, for me it was all about the Fox.. fox mulder.
All I can say about the movie I saw today is simply that it doesn't disappoint, not a single place in the movie drops from it's advertised glory.. it delivers exactly what it promised too.
So if you wanted to go see it and weren't sure, then wait no more, flee to your local moving picture plaza and take a seat, you wont be disappointed.
Aaron Eckhart is wonderful as always... along with an equally stunning cast, not at all brought down by Katie's performance... Amazing I know, she usually destroys everything she signs on too. Aaron is also among what seems to be an ok cast for the Black Dahila movie. A personal fave of mine. I have the doll and everything. Plus I saw the trailer for the new Duchovny, good to know he's working seriously again, not that I didn't love love love House Of D. Trust The Man looks interesting and somewhat humorous. And as most of my oldest friends know Mr. Duchovny is among my top 100's list of Hollywood Hotties, holding a special place in my memories as one of my first movie star crushes... the rest of the girls may have had Dawson or whatever Creek hanging on they're walls, but oh no not me, for me it was all about the Fox.. fox mulder.
All I can say about the movie I saw today is simply that it doesn't disappoint, not a single place in the movie drops from it's advertised glory.. it delivers exactly what it promised too.
So if you wanted to go see it and weren't sure, then wait no more, flee to your local moving picture plaza and take a seat, you wont be disappointed.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
I'm feeling better....
I just finished watching SERENITY, after already somewhat familiarizing myself with FIRE FLY.... it's scary how much of my own style I see in both show and film, leaving me to only hope there is still room in that world for one more... On the other side of thought, I realize my friends feel no need to shelter me from anything... not Brother Bear and not Serentity. ...
Oh well INXS' SWITCH is getting me through...
I've been driving a bus... Yeah I know! Go Figure... and as long as it's not in reverse I'm actually pretty good... I KNOW! WHO'D OF THOUGHT RIGHT?
It's ok, I would have lost that bet too
And of course Titus last Saturday did not disappoint, all new bit and he said some things that I had been saying for well over a year or two now... and not all of it was obvious... which I know doesn't mean I'm not crazy, but it does mean I'm not alone.. so yay me. Though I understand what all he is saying when he says it and such, but because I'm not where he is in his life, like I'm not married, no kids yet, and neither of my parents have killed themselves or anyone else, but have come close once or twice, I can understand and laugh along, but not relate as much as I have to his earlier stuff.
But y'know what???
I can't wait until I'm as equally blessed enough so I can.
A little bit of a peek at my soul is all ya'll get for now, Going to sign off here before I really show a venerable side.
Cheers Darlings
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out...
....Wave On....
I just finished watching SERENITY, after already somewhat familiarizing myself with FIRE FLY.... it's scary how much of my own style I see in both show and film, leaving me to only hope there is still room in that world for one more... On the other side of thought, I realize my friends feel no need to shelter me from anything... not Brother Bear and not Serentity. ...
Oh well INXS' SWITCH is getting me through...
I've been driving a bus... Yeah I know! Go Figure... and as long as it's not in reverse I'm actually pretty good... I KNOW! WHO'D OF THOUGHT RIGHT?
It's ok, I would have lost that bet too
And of course Titus last Saturday did not disappoint, all new bit and he said some things that I had been saying for well over a year or two now... and not all of it was obvious... which I know doesn't mean I'm not crazy, but it does mean I'm not alone.. so yay me. Though I understand what all he is saying when he says it and such, but because I'm not where he is in his life, like I'm not married, no kids yet, and neither of my parents have killed themselves or anyone else, but have come close once or twice, I can understand and laugh along, but not relate as much as I have to his earlier stuff.
But y'know what???
I can't wait until I'm as equally blessed enough so I can.
A little bit of a peek at my soul is all ya'll get for now, Going to sign off here before I really show a venerable side.
Cheers Darlings
Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out...
....Wave On....
Thursday, April 06, 2006
So Sick For So Long
Oh, I have been so sick, and I'm still gradually getting better. And on top of that my sister has actually managed to keep the same sleeping schedule I have... except she heads to be before I do and I have to break my sleep for about 3 hours to take care of my morning shift. So needless to say she's on almost the entire time I'm awake. Never the less I'm thinking that Thursdays are going to be my official "catch up online" days... mostly because all my friends are busy and nothings on TV.
So news.. news.. news... Well I did get my permit finally, now the scary actual bus driving begins.. Monday - can you imagine me in the drivers seat of a 30 foot long yellow bus. I know I'm having a hard time with it already, but if I want to GROW UP, I gotta start somewhere, and a decent paying job is usually a good start.
And that's another thing I saw the movie "FAILURE TO LAUNCH" and sadly Nik and I and even though A wasn't around - we could relate to the 3 single guys still living at home - And believe it or not I don't relate to McConaughey's character - I actually relate to Bartha's character more. and Nik to the Nature Boy of the movie. And of course as funny as the movie was, it still left us wondering, thinking surely we wont all be still living under our parents roof, physically or proverbial at 35! I mean at least one of us has to make it out alive and with a decent social life in tact.... right?
And in other news, I'm going to see Christopher Titus Saturday night with Nik, A and 'Batman' as he now refers to himself as. Nik, Batman and I are just big fans and I think it will be a nice way to show A that things in life could be allot worse, but with the subtle humor that keeps things interesting.
Outside of that I just purchased a lap top, sure it needs some tweaking, but it'll be perfect by the time I sit down and start on that 2nd draft of my book.
And I'm still looking into fully revamping this site and such, after I can balance out my sleep cycle a bit.
Thats all for now.......
So news.. news.. news... Well I did get my permit finally, now the scary actual bus driving begins.. Monday - can you imagine me in the drivers seat of a 30 foot long yellow bus. I know I'm having a hard time with it already, but if I want to GROW UP, I gotta start somewhere, and a decent paying job is usually a good start.
And that's another thing I saw the movie "FAILURE TO LAUNCH" and sadly Nik and I and even though A wasn't around - we could relate to the 3 single guys still living at home - And believe it or not I don't relate to McConaughey's character - I actually relate to Bartha's character more. and Nik to the Nature Boy of the movie. And of course as funny as the movie was, it still left us wondering, thinking surely we wont all be still living under our parents roof, physically or proverbial at 35! I mean at least one of us has to make it out alive and with a decent social life in tact.... right?
And in other news, I'm going to see Christopher Titus Saturday night with Nik, A and 'Batman' as he now refers to himself as. Nik, Batman and I are just big fans and I think it will be a nice way to show A that things in life could be allot worse, but with the subtle humor that keeps things interesting.
Outside of that I just purchased a lap top, sure it needs some tweaking, but it'll be perfect by the time I sit down and start on that 2nd draft of my book.
And I'm still looking into fully revamping this site and such, after I can balance out my sleep cycle a bit.
Thats all for now.......
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
So I'm looking into different - I guess web hosting options... that might be the word for it. And I'm finding some that I really like, and really just trying to see what's out there in the add free sort of feel... y'know? I wouldn't mind having to share some space with advertisement, if I could at least pick what is advertised or in what way it's handled... I mean that's not an entirely stupid idea... I mean think about it, if your site handles mostly political views, is it really a good waste of space if the advertisements are for Psychic Readings? Or if your web site is about gaming, is a Book Club really the best pop up to have.... or how about if your web site is all about 2nd or 3rd generation Home Schooling, from an active point of view, would a streaming 'Locate your old classmates' really fit the mood?
I don't think so....
but hey what do I know...
Eventually I'll find one, Eventually. And from there I'll try and start building something that allows me to vent while also leaving me with the feeling that it's not a bunch of words and time wasted.. y'know?
I'm excited, even if I am the only one....
I don't think so....
but hey what do I know...
Eventually I'll find one, Eventually. And from there I'll try and start building something that allows me to vent while also leaving me with the feeling that it's not a bunch of words and time wasted.. y'know?
I'm excited, even if I am the only one....
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
whats in a character
Ok, so for the first time since I don't know when I actually have something to blog about, and I might be getting back to actually trying to make a web site about me, but more importantly about the life it is that I inhabit, seriously. I mean - think about it - Confessions of a wannabe writer.... life as the daughter of a paranormal investigator (lots of possibility, I mean the chat around the head stones about last weeks episode of House is better then nothing) .... How bad do I want it, How bad do I need it, how much am I willing to do to get it... and by the way, What is IT exactly?
So for starters, I guess I begin now... This damn book has shaghi'd my every thought! And it sucks, because the first draft is done, I still have at least another month of break time to go before I can begin draft #2, and I'm so torn on which direction to take it. Do I go with a more technical feel as found in a wonderful and key inspiration, Treasure Island, or do I go with a more whimsical move, much like Peter Pan or other more child like stories. And the world is in love with orphans so I should have nothing to worry about right? Wrong, in case no one else has noticed, when was the last time we see a story where the parents and the kids actually have love lost between them. How historically accurate should I be? And is that our history, meaning the Real world, or is it the Fictional world,with it's own history . I mean after all Hook is the only man the Sea Cook feared, and since the Sea Cook is the only man Flint feared, it's to say Flint feared Hook as well...... OY!
On the upside... The characters are writing themselves now. Always a sign your on the right course. The cabin boy is becoming far more angry with each thought, but with reason this time, his character is even developing other characters in relation to him, such as his Father ( who is dead in the book, but that's the best sign of all, when you dead characters even develop themselves) unfortunately the girl is still a bit of a mess.... no different then when it all began.. but at least she has a name and I have a clear view of what she looks like. And the fish out of water him self, my Texan.... I relate to him ever so much, and though he hasn't changed to much, but I do still seek shelter in writing his narratives - for they are still the most familiar to me.
Although I guess I really wont have a clear view on the progression of the entire crew until I sit and begin again.
Time to go sit and pretend I'm not thinking about it.
So for starters, I guess I begin now... This damn book has shaghi'd my every thought! And it sucks, because the first draft is done, I still have at least another month of break time to go before I can begin draft #2, and I'm so torn on which direction to take it. Do I go with a more technical feel as found in a wonderful and key inspiration, Treasure Island, or do I go with a more whimsical move, much like Peter Pan or other more child like stories. And the world is in love with orphans so I should have nothing to worry about right? Wrong, in case no one else has noticed, when was the last time we see a story where the parents and the kids actually have love lost between them. How historically accurate should I be? And is that our history, meaning the Real world, or is it the Fictional world,with it's own history . I mean after all Hook is the only man the Sea Cook feared, and since the Sea Cook is the only man Flint feared, it's to say Flint feared Hook as well...... OY!
On the upside... The characters are writing themselves now. Always a sign your on the right course. The cabin boy is becoming far more angry with each thought, but with reason this time, his character is even developing other characters in relation to him, such as his Father ( who is dead in the book, but that's the best sign of all, when you dead characters even develop themselves) unfortunately the girl is still a bit of a mess.... no different then when it all began.. but at least she has a name and I have a clear view of what she looks like. And the fish out of water him self, my Texan.... I relate to him ever so much, and though he hasn't changed to much, but I do still seek shelter in writing his narratives - for they are still the most familiar to me.
Although I guess I really wont have a clear view on the progression of the entire crew until I sit and begin again.
Time to go sit and pretend I'm not thinking about it.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
"Just Remember That Your Standing on a Planet..."
The days that make up the weeks in my life are pretty cut and paste with maybe a mad lib thrown in or two, but for the most part what happens on Monday will be very much like Tuesday and you might think this is a sign of a boring life, but it's quite the contrary - take last Thursday for example...
5:00 am : Wake up, realize my air mattress I sleep on has sprung a leak, take a shower, reluctantly eat another sandwich, same as it ever was. Sit down for about 25 minutes of music videos on VH1's jump start. Sitting and watching, and developing another category of music interest - music I like only if I can watch it from my couch. This category includes Black Eyed Peas, and almost anyone VH1 titles 'you ought know'. Along with many many others, some may move up to my 'anywhere any time' group, but most wont. Honestly I watch with the simple hope to see anything INXS will put together, because you know their new front man will be shirtless through most of it, and of course the Goo Goo Dolls, because that's the kind of music that gets you through.
6:00 am : Drag myself into my place of work, sit at a table in the lounge area for an hour, mostly reading or writing, until 7:00 rolls around and my route begins. (you would think if your route begins at 7, you could come in at 7, but they insist I'm there at 6, just incase, but not on the clock... sucks)
9:00 am : Off the bus, soon at home, soon faced with the question of weather or not to go in this afternoon like the perfect employee or call in so I can ensure my sister and I wont miss a moment of the Rodeo we were to attend that night, her first semi concert - Maroon 5 - so you can understand the concern.
10:00 am : Call in, tell them somethings come up I wont be able to make it back into town by 1:45, so that's done and the next few hours consist of washing, and ironing and styling...
3:00 pm: As I'm sitting and talking with my mother, the fish tak, the 33 gallon, filled with semi pricey fish, fish tank that sits ontop of a stand that sits on our brand new carpet springs a leak, a little leak, that because it's a seam leak, can turn into a big leak. So while my mother holds it together, trying to keep it a small leak, I lay down towels, wake my bother, and the two of us scramble to get the fish out, get the plants out, the snails and frogs out and all 33 gallons of water out, the bulk of which is done with big plastic bowls, the last half gallon sucked out by shopvac. My mom and brother then have to go to our storage space a mile or two away, retrieve our smaller back up tank, bring it back, clean it up, set it up, while I wake my sister up to get ready and my brother runs to Taco bell for food. But lets not forget in the middle of all this our two indoor kittens escape through a window that was left open during the mess, and though pretty poesy is safe in our ront yard, by kitten Bucky, so named from Get Fuzzy is 4 houses down and still going....
4:00 : We all get into the car and drop my brother off at his place of work, and my sister and I at the metro park and ride at Delmar.
7:00 pm: and $100 dollars later, $75 went straight to the cost of Tshirts. My sister and I take our seats, which were rather good seats. She wanted to get to her seat as fast as possible, not wanting to miss a moment. So here is where lack of communication and foresight take their toll. My sister loves, I mean loves cows! So needless to say the Cafe roping, the Cafe scramble, and anything that involves Cowboys and Cows (excluding the bull ridding) has my sister angry and on the edge of tears, but she refuses to leave afraid we wont be back in time for Maroon 5.
9:00 pm: (I think it was 9) Maroon 5 takes the stage... Little known fact about my time with Russell, with the exception of our first date, any time we were together in his apartment, Maroon 5's one and only cd, songs about jane would be playing. I mean the entire time we were alone at his place... So naturally there were songs that came up in the show that I haven't heard since I was last physically with Russell... so yeah there were tears. One of the only things that kept me grounded emotionally was Adam.. the front man... Adam's voice, his speaking voice, it wasn't at all like Lisel and I had expected, so that was a good laugh.
12:00 am : Finally home after a crazy Bus ride back, a readied lunch turned dinner, and I lay myself down on my patched up air mattress falling asleep only to wake up again 4 hours and 50 minutes later by my alarm clock, sunken again on a deflated mattress.
5:00 am : Wake up, realize my air mattress I sleep on has sprung a leak, take a shower, reluctantly eat another sandwich, same as it ever was. Sit down for about 25 minutes of music videos on VH1's jump start. Sitting and watching, and developing another category of music interest - music I like only if I can watch it from my couch. This category includes Black Eyed Peas, and almost anyone VH1 titles 'you ought know'. Along with many many others, some may move up to my 'anywhere any time' group, but most wont. Honestly I watch with the simple hope to see anything INXS will put together, because you know their new front man will be shirtless through most of it, and of course the Goo Goo Dolls, because that's the kind of music that gets you through.
6:00 am : Drag myself into my place of work, sit at a table in the lounge area for an hour, mostly reading or writing, until 7:00 rolls around and my route begins. (you would think if your route begins at 7, you could come in at 7, but they insist I'm there at 6, just incase, but not on the clock... sucks)
9:00 am : Off the bus, soon at home, soon faced with the question of weather or not to go in this afternoon like the perfect employee or call in so I can ensure my sister and I wont miss a moment of the Rodeo we were to attend that night, her first semi concert - Maroon 5 - so you can understand the concern.
10:00 am : Call in, tell them somethings come up I wont be able to make it back into town by 1:45, so that's done and the next few hours consist of washing, and ironing and styling...
3:00 pm: As I'm sitting and talking with my mother, the fish tak, the 33 gallon, filled with semi pricey fish, fish tank that sits ontop of a stand that sits on our brand new carpet springs a leak, a little leak, that because it's a seam leak, can turn into a big leak. So while my mother holds it together, trying to keep it a small leak, I lay down towels, wake my bother, and the two of us scramble to get the fish out, get the plants out, the snails and frogs out and all 33 gallons of water out, the bulk of which is done with big plastic bowls, the last half gallon sucked out by shopvac. My mom and brother then have to go to our storage space a mile or two away, retrieve our smaller back up tank, bring it back, clean it up, set it up, while I wake my sister up to get ready and my brother runs to Taco bell for food. But lets not forget in the middle of all this our two indoor kittens escape through a window that was left open during the mess, and though pretty poesy is safe in our ront yard, by kitten Bucky, so named from Get Fuzzy is 4 houses down and still going....
4:00 : We all get into the car and drop my brother off at his place of work, and my sister and I at the metro park and ride at Delmar.
7:00 pm: and $100 dollars later, $75 went straight to the cost of Tshirts. My sister and I take our seats, which were rather good seats. She wanted to get to her seat as fast as possible, not wanting to miss a moment. So here is where lack of communication and foresight take their toll. My sister loves, I mean loves cows! So needless to say the Cafe roping, the Cafe scramble, and anything that involves Cowboys and Cows (excluding the bull ridding) has my sister angry and on the edge of tears, but she refuses to leave afraid we wont be back in time for Maroon 5.
9:00 pm: (I think it was 9) Maroon 5 takes the stage... Little known fact about my time with Russell, with the exception of our first date, any time we were together in his apartment, Maroon 5's one and only cd, songs about jane would be playing. I mean the entire time we were alone at his place... So naturally there were songs that came up in the show that I haven't heard since I was last physically with Russell... so yeah there were tears. One of the only things that kept me grounded emotionally was Adam.. the front man... Adam's voice, his speaking voice, it wasn't at all like Lisel and I had expected, so that was a good laugh.
12:00 am : Finally home after a crazy Bus ride back, a readied lunch turned dinner, and I lay myself down on my patched up air mattress falling asleep only to wake up again 4 hours and 50 minutes later by my alarm clock, sunken again on a deflated mattress.
Saturday, February 25, 2006
I have allot of people I could consider a friend, simply because I think they are cool, I can carry on a decent conversation with and don't avoid like the plague. But I'm sure like every one else, I have many, many levels when details beyond the above are added in. Now, and the very center, you find a layer that involves the friends I have that I'm actively interacting with, there are 4, a total of 5 if you count us as a group... so looking at us as a group, you'll find that only 1 of us still has a car that's not on the edge of being declared totaled. And it's not me. Out off the 4 of us with damaged cars, the pearl.. mine.... is the only one that can still be roughly driven, but if you let go of the steering wheel, it's automatically do a U turn, so understandably, we don't drive it. These 4 accidents have all occurred with in 3 months of each other, one last Thursday. I have not spent this much time on the phone since I was 16.
Aside from that a series of strange events, added with the already building up emotional and work related stress caused an emotional break down at the local DPS office.. I at least made it to my jeep before the rush of tears hit, but I wont bore you with the details, lets just say, Tuesday sucked. But I did pass another test, making 3 out of 6 and I'm going to try at the other 3 Monday on my day off.
I also am happy to report that I have finished the first draft to my Pirate Boys novel... some people have asked to have a look see, but considering the fact that it's riddled with notes and the characters don't even have proper names until the 8th chapter, I've had to decline the requests. But no worries, for I am taking the next two to three months to do some research on everything from Ships and Knots, to Horses, History and How other writers have mastered the art of story telling in narrative... in other words I'm not touching a Harry Potter book with a 10 foot poll... love the movies, but not a good source for influence, to current if you ask me. Yep, I'm drowning my self with the classics. So after my short break is over, I'll set forth working on the second, ready to read (test form) draft. Which wont take me near as long as the first. I mean my life sucks, but unlike in 2004 I have far less to occupie my time with.
Aside from that I'm off to find a speed daiting event in houston... this ought to be rich.
Aside from that a series of strange events, added with the already building up emotional and work related stress caused an emotional break down at the local DPS office.. I at least made it to my jeep before the rush of tears hit, but I wont bore you with the details, lets just say, Tuesday sucked. But I did pass another test, making 3 out of 6 and I'm going to try at the other 3 Monday on my day off.
I also am happy to report that I have finished the first draft to my Pirate Boys novel... some people have asked to have a look see, but considering the fact that it's riddled with notes and the characters don't even have proper names until the 8th chapter, I've had to decline the requests. But no worries, for I am taking the next two to three months to do some research on everything from Ships and Knots, to Horses, History and How other writers have mastered the art of story telling in narrative... in other words I'm not touching a Harry Potter book with a 10 foot poll... love the movies, but not a good source for influence, to current if you ask me. Yep, I'm drowning my self with the classics. So after my short break is over, I'll set forth working on the second, ready to read (test form) draft. Which wont take me near as long as the first. I mean my life sucks, but unlike in 2004 I have far less to occupie my time with.
Aside from that I'm off to find a speed daiting event in houston... this ought to be rich.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Happy People - Think Before You Act or ask
Happy depression and self pity day!
So far, I've passed two of the six tests, just that much closer to becoming a bus driver... ehhh could be worse.
And earlier this week I found myself in an Hour - in - a- half long battle to talk my friend off a proverbial ledge of doubt, after she was asked to help bake an happy VD cake for her other friends sweetie, sending that friend into a down ward spiral of questioning self worth and purpose. I've been there... Personally I feel this day is just another chance to condition children further for a society that will eventually let them down, unless their lucky, and in which case fate will surely pick up the slack... that and to further condemn the single and uninvolved.... sucks. All I can say is ' couple's - have you no mercy?' No worries of course, pay back is coming in the form of Mardi Gras, St. Patricks day and of course, Spring Break, and an entire summer of 'Wish You Were Heres'
The 'Pearl' was in an accident today... my parents were driving, and it was the other persons fault, but from what it sounds the damage is pretty bad, and the truck is only worth like 2 or 3 thousand, and God for bid if the damage is above that or close to that, new used car for me, which if it was any truck but the 'pearl' I'd be pretty happy.. but I'm jumping ahead of myself. But with the week I've been having, anything could happen.
Filed my taxes, or actually had someone else I trust file them, and looks like I'll be getting enough back to get my lap top (not new) and with hope my Ipod. Still fingers crossed.
Outside of that, given the effect that this day can have on single girls, more so my friend Nik and I - I am trying to set up some St. Patrick's day plans together, going real well, just have to settle on a bar or two to maybe complete it all... so yeah.
I guess All that's left are the 'Cheers' all around then eh?
So far, I've passed two of the six tests, just that much closer to becoming a bus driver... ehhh could be worse.
And earlier this week I found myself in an Hour - in - a- half long battle to talk my friend off a proverbial ledge of doubt, after she was asked to help bake an happy VD cake for her other friends sweetie, sending that friend into a down ward spiral of questioning self worth and purpose. I've been there... Personally I feel this day is just another chance to condition children further for a society that will eventually let them down, unless their lucky, and in which case fate will surely pick up the slack... that and to further condemn the single and uninvolved.... sucks. All I can say is ' couple's - have you no mercy?' No worries of course, pay back is coming in the form of Mardi Gras, St. Patricks day and of course, Spring Break, and an entire summer of 'Wish You Were Heres'
The 'Pearl' was in an accident today... my parents were driving, and it was the other persons fault, but from what it sounds the damage is pretty bad, and the truck is only worth like 2 or 3 thousand, and God for bid if the damage is above that or close to that, new used car for me, which if it was any truck but the 'pearl' I'd be pretty happy.. but I'm jumping ahead of myself. But with the week I've been having, anything could happen.
Filed my taxes, or actually had someone else I trust file them, and looks like I'll be getting enough back to get my lap top (not new) and with hope my Ipod. Still fingers crossed.
Outside of that, given the effect that this day can have on single girls, more so my friend Nik and I - I am trying to set up some St. Patrick's day plans together, going real well, just have to settle on a bar or two to maybe complete it all... so yeah.
I guess All that's left are the 'Cheers' all around then eh?
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
A friend of mine passed away today, sure he was 72 and with the cancer and chest troubles it wasn't too much of a shocker, but I miss him and I hate my self for not taking time to actually say hi to him this morning on my way to my bus, instead I just waved all half assed and in a hurry. He was a good friend, always checking my hand for an engagement ring, always trying to find some break in the Houston art scene for me, see his Daughter was a art student and now is very active in the art world, and I guess he saw the same kind of promise in me, was kind of like one of those uncles you have that really isn't your uncle but might as well be? He was like one of the only three people at my current place of work I actually enjoyed talking too.
Outside of that I know I should be studying to pass the damn test I have to take of Friday, I might still, I'm just really not in the mood. As far as the book goes, well I'm on the last chapter... I know point A, I know point B, not really sure how to get from one point to the other... Just a matter of how much of a realistic feel I insitst this story have...
In other news I screwed around with fate a bit, and kind of got a bad reaction. If nothing else this might be just what it takes to boot some of the cosmos in action.
Outside of that I know I should be studying to pass the damn test I have to take of Friday, I might still, I'm just really not in the mood. As far as the book goes, well I'm on the last chapter... I know point A, I know point B, not really sure how to get from one point to the other... Just a matter of how much of a realistic feel I insitst this story have...
In other news I screwed around with fate a bit, and kind of got a bad reaction. If nothing else this might be just what it takes to boot some of the cosmos in action.
Monday, January 30, 2006
last weeks rant (forgot to to post)
Everything is eventual, even the body of my dreams...
Everything is eventual, even the publishing of my first book...
Everything is eventual, even my little house one day, with my name on the little deed....
Everything is eventual, even the perfect guy for me...
See what I've learned during the drunken and hungover haze of my weekend, is that it's not that there are no perfect guys left in the world, but rather that there are no real happy endings. Even fairytale princesses don't always live ever after, the way normal society depicts we should. Case in point, the Macy's parade, either the Christmas or thanksgiving one, I gotta tell you I don't really recall which, but what I do recall is the Disney float that went by on my TV screen, filled with all the wonderful Disney characters in their perfect little worlds... All the princess with their princes by their side, each with one or two kids running about their feet, well almost all of them, for low ad behold before my very eyes, one happy fairy tale couple seemed with out the joys of off spring; Sleeping Beauty, also known as Aurora and Briar Rose, and her handsome Phillip - The princess I - well I don't know if I identify with her the most, or just evny her the most - but the princess who's doll sits on my dresser stood there waving to the crowd, barren for all the world to see. And don't give me that argument that it's just because she never got a sequel, I don't recall Jasmine and Aladdin ever having a rug rat about in their 3 films. But now I'm getting away from my point, my point is no great love story ever started out perfectly, not even in the lands of lore... so why should the ever after ever be expected to be anything but unexpected? And as far as perfect guys go, perfection on this earth is in the eye of the realistic beholder, heaven knows the perfect man for me has ever been anything but perfect! ( so what have we learned so far, the perfect man and the term Happily Ever After are just poor choices for titles, for the things and areas and spands of time in our life that are unavoidable, but completely 'live through able')
(Insert description of Perfect Guy..... maybe later)
At the end of all I'm really looking for in life, where the perfect man is concerned is someone, who I can actually see my self surviving the roller coaster of emotional exhilaration and downers also known as life, also know as Happily ever after.
Everything is eventual, even the publishing of my first book...
Everything is eventual, even my little house one day, with my name on the little deed....
Everything is eventual, even the perfect guy for me...
See what I've learned during the drunken and hungover haze of my weekend, is that it's not that there are no perfect guys left in the world, but rather that there are no real happy endings. Even fairytale princesses don't always live ever after, the way normal society depicts we should. Case in point, the Macy's parade, either the Christmas or thanksgiving one, I gotta tell you I don't really recall which, but what I do recall is the Disney float that went by on my TV screen, filled with all the wonderful Disney characters in their perfect little worlds... All the princess with their princes by their side, each with one or two kids running about their feet, well almost all of them, for low ad behold before my very eyes, one happy fairy tale couple seemed with out the joys of off spring; Sleeping Beauty, also known as Aurora and Briar Rose, and her handsome Phillip - The princess I - well I don't know if I identify with her the most, or just evny her the most - but the princess who's doll sits on my dresser stood there waving to the crowd, barren for all the world to see. And don't give me that argument that it's just because she never got a sequel, I don't recall Jasmine and Aladdin ever having a rug rat about in their 3 films. But now I'm getting away from my point, my point is no great love story ever started out perfectly, not even in the lands of lore... so why should the ever after ever be expected to be anything but unexpected? And as far as perfect guys go, perfection on this earth is in the eye of the realistic beholder, heaven knows the perfect man for me has ever been anything but perfect! ( so what have we learned so far, the perfect man and the term Happily Ever After are just poor choices for titles, for the things and areas and spands of time in our life that are unavoidable, but completely 'live through able')
(Insert description of Perfect Guy..... maybe later)
At the end of all I'm really looking for in life, where the perfect man is concerned is someone, who I can actually see my self surviving the roller coaster of emotional exhilaration and downers also known as life, also know as Happily ever after.
Friday, January 27, 2006
Ok, so now that my life is back to some order, I intend to At Least set aside an hour or so a week to keep this up. Of course with one of the reasons I started this blog, was so that in one way or the other I got a sufficient amount of writing done every week, but given recent events, I've been catching up with writing my stories. Mainly the pirate one. As it stands I'm probably going to have it finished by early march and then all the fun research and fact checking begins. I'm also working on earning my CDL, There is 6 test that you have to take to get your permit, most people take them one at a time, but my mom who used to be a bus driver, who is helping me to prepare, thinks that is just a big waste of gas, so I'm being forced to learn all twelve chapters that are relevant in the manual - until I know it like the back of my hand before even approaching the idea of taking the first test.... long story short, I was always one of those kids growing up with those light reddish patches of skin shaped like bandaids - from the get it over with and all at once attitudes.
Speaking of getting it over with, I should offline and figure out what to do with the weekend before me. If any of ya'll are out and about the Katy way, give me a ring and make it that much easier. LOL
Speaking of getting it over with, I should offline and figure out what to do with the weekend before me. If any of ya'll are out and about the Katy way, give me a ring and make it that much easier. LOL
Friday, January 20, 2006
I'm alive.....
and I'm 22....
oy....
Sorry I haven't been around, my Sister has discovered the internet, and mixing that with her love for all things anime and all things gothic, needless to say we've been running maintence like crazy!
Plus I've been busy, busy, busy! I am two chapters away from having the first draft of my pirate story for kids and young adults completed.... yeah I never thought I'd see the day either.... Plus I'm busy trying to learn the interworkings to being a bus driver, so I can acquire my CDL... go ahead and laugh, but 12.50 an hour is better the 7.50 any day of the week.
Oh so much I want to say... like no time to say it...
I'll try to be on more
(not that anyone will notice)
Whatever Tomorrow Brings......
Spiral Out...
Wave On.....
and I'm 22....
oy....
Sorry I haven't been around, my Sister has discovered the internet, and mixing that with her love for all things anime and all things gothic, needless to say we've been running maintence like crazy!
Plus I've been busy, busy, busy! I am two chapters away from having the first draft of my pirate story for kids and young adults completed.... yeah I never thought I'd see the day either.... Plus I'm busy trying to learn the interworkings to being a bus driver, so I can acquire my CDL... go ahead and laugh, but 12.50 an hour is better the 7.50 any day of the week.
Oh so much I want to say... like no time to say it...
I'll try to be on more
(not that anyone will notice)
Whatever Tomorrow Brings......
Spiral Out...
Wave On.....
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