I keep thinking one day after I hit it big, the world, or at least the small percentage that will make up my fan club will enjoy this collection of my life past, present and whatever I randomly decide will make up my Future.

So I keep writing and thankful for the few who do still read this in the 'NOW", without you, well I'd be kind of a loser.

As for now, my social life just did a 180. Hung out with A. for the first time in over a month. Given the fact we used to see each other at least 3 times a week, and spend almost every night this summer that the same Mexican restaurant and after parties and coffee shops. A month feels like forever. More so when we left on a bad note. And me and Nik who were getting along great, kind of took a wrong turn somewhere in the midst of the last two times we talked. I know it's my fault... And I think I can trace it back to a 5 minute conversation about miscarriages.. all science on the surface, but all emotional in secret. But I've been wrong before.

The sound track to my life right now is "Born in the USA" by Bruce Springsteen. I'm starting to wonder if I am the only person left who still like the Boss.

I almost finished with Christmas shopping.

I actually went out on a semi date thing, again with the guy from like over a month ago.. Some call him Hottie (name) and some call him Cream Soda. (some meaning my friends, don't really know what his friends call him). It went much smoother, didn't spend the entire time comparing my self now to who I was when I was with Russell.. so yay for me) I sat down with him and watched about half of Reservoir Dogs (sp??) People have been trying to get me to watch this movie for well over a decade now. It reminds me of all the stuff I used to write in High School. So I can't wait to finish it... and as far as the guy.. I hope to see him again. Even if this doesn't go anywhere. He's going to be one cool cat to know.



I guess that's it for now..

WHATEVER TOMORROW BRINGS
SPIRAL OUT
WAVE ON