Solitary Thoughts (10/11/04

Today was a good day. I actually had to sit back an reevaluate my life in the presence of well, on hell-of-a critict. A woman who could make of break me, to a certain extent. Today I 've had a few doors open.. and a good deal more slam in my face.

So with that said;
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Redefining Battle
Love vs Life

Imagine the following; Confusion, headaches, stomachs, stress beyond believe, is he/she worth it? Am I worth it? And exactly what is enough? Ten Seconds from a two weeks notice with no where to turn. Roof begining to cave in while the walls around you shrink. The answer is right in front of you, but the means is no where in sight. Things that should be stable are not and what is good one moment is soured by the next....

Then Imagine to follow; Deep breathes, clear thinking, weight lifted, burdens relieved. Trying again, with a good chance to win - and if he/she is worth it or further more are you is no longer the case, one life to live few chances to love and what the hell is fate anyways? Taking the bad news, cleaning to the good news, because fate and faith aside, in a world with out power or wonder good still prevails over evil right? Stability is something achieved with a smile. Longshot or not, reason aside, your here for a reason - but what as to why?

Now Imagine; Chin up, keep the smile on that face - nevermind reality buckling about you. Stablilty is quickly becoming a mother goose rhyme. Your positive energy at which is developed upon request seems to be slowly outed just as it was reigned in. And who's fault is it? How could you know, when the rest of the world that surrounds you, smiles simply saying. "Oh.. no..."

Enough rhyming and babbling. There are some points to be made.

There is nothing new under the sun.
Solitary thought is a fantasy, every idea you have has already or soon will be conceived by a total stranger outside your world, it's just a matter of action - we all have the gift of thought, nothing unique there. the real gift is the gift of choice.
Stability is a fairy tale.
Classically put, life isn't fair.
Don't pray for what you want... don't even meditate on your desire. The only thing you can rely on in this world is what you need, further more you can always rely on being constantly oblivious to your own needs and reminded constantly of it, so.
Never worry about the worst happening when your life is to good, ten to one the burn will come at the moment before you are there.
Progress is frequently misdiagnosed.

The only real task at hand, the only real purpose in life is to move from Point A to Point B, while trying to learn a few things in between and if you have the time to keep some fun waiting on the side lines, for those moments when no one of any real importance is actually looking.

Are these few thoughts right? Wrong? Is it a divide... and if so how even?

LOVE vs LIFE
To a point we all spend our lives redefining our lives.
Different times call for different amounts of investment.
Still like it or not, it's a game we all play. So in a show of hands, in the game of redefining, what is easier? Life, a game we play alone. Or Love, the game we play with another.
The difference, the game of life is one player. The game of love is the game of life with a 2 play option. Is it fair to asking something of another when we are already in content construction of our selves. As a rule of thumb the average person is very unlikely to make a choice based on another's point of view.

So when love comes to town, there are a choices to be made;
Independence - honestly, let it work until it doesn't. Who are you to seek happiness in another?
Unity - Shots are no longer to be made or had. You see worth and value in one another, and above all promise. Fate and Destiny aside. Happiness is worth constructive criticisms.

Forgive me.. I ramble :}

Whatever Tomorrow Brings.... Spiral Out... Wave On...