Yesterday was hard....
It would have been my 2 month mark with Russell.

I went out last night, I'm not saying it was a mistake, it wasn't. Just hanging out, meeting some new people talking on and off yesterday with others, It was a good distraction. If I hadn't... well I don't know. It's hard to say which days are harder, which anniversary; 1st, 10th, 15th or 21st. I'm trying to keep moving despite how I may feel when I wake up or fall asleep, and I am actually starting to really 'move' and I don't mean moving on past what I had and what happened, but just moving to where I can ... I don't know, Move?
Oddly enough I'm not sure how to feel about that... I went out, I 'moved', and I laughed. But I don't know how to feel about it. I wish someone could just tell me, but who to trust? Who's really right in this area of opinion and advice?
I'm glad I went out, I think. I admit the Marque... if I'm spelling that right - Isn't the best choice given that's where I went June 31st.. but at least it's not River Oaks.. Or the Museum District. All things considered it was a nice time, I'm glad I went.

Today was my first day back on the job for the school year. I like my driver.. The route is good.. The time is great.. I found out I might be picking up a mid-day, which I really did not want to do. I mean the extra 100 dollars a pay check can be nice, but it's stressful - Still I guess if I'm paired up with my regular driver then it would be ok, worth taking on.
It's going to be a long, long, long year.
And I'm still trying to decide how I feel about all of that and everything.

Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On