Bring it on!

Yeah, so I didn't go to sleep last night. I'm now running on about 3 hours sleep that I managed to clock in between shifts, and let me tell you; A special needs bus can feel like a Kiddie Rollercoaster brought to you by the makers of Twilight Zone - it's ok, they know me here. Honestly I don't really remember much of it, just allot of talking - stopping - jerky take offs - and all the kids were present and accounted for this morning, same conditions as I recall them from yesterday after noon, So I didn't miss out on much that might be job threatening, also given the fact that my driver was still talking to me this after noon... I think she was. I don't really recall the high school half of my run either. And yeah, I managed all this forgetfulness without the help of Sleeping Aids (which have been taken away from me :[ ) or heavy and or frequent shots of rum. Now tonight on the other hand - "DRINKS ALL AROUND!" - Of course 'All around' might only consits of myself, possibly DJ and I'll leave two open spots, because it's Friday night - I think everyone is cried out, dilusional, depressed or all of the above. - Ding Ding Ding! We have a winner!

So why was I up all night? What did I do between the hours of 5:00 pm yesterday and today's 6:05 am when I clocked in at work? What on God's green earth could cause such a call for such erratic, toxic free behavior? Well it comes down to this; The Grim Reaper.. Yes Death! The man himself has just earned the Businessman of the Year award from yours truly and yours alike! I mean, how dose he do it? Everytime we think we've seen the last of this Bone Daddy for the summer, he jumps out from behind some off hinged door and yells 'Surprise!'
*SIGHS*
I'm sorry.. I know that probably wasn't very much called for, but it's how I feel right now, Angry and when I get this kind of angry, I get that kind of Sarcastic and we already know I'm the 'Dark' Humorist of the group/crew - So deal. Don't like it? Then comment and say so. Still I am sorry and I'm trying hard not to offend anyone, but I'm so drained that I don't have the energy to try harder. Maybe tomorrow, but for now - Not so good.

Anyways (yes the rant continues; seat belts fastened?) I get home from a long day at work, by the way it was one of those everything is on my last nerve kind of days. 'Cause it's a bitter-sweet symphony, That's life, trying to make ends meet, your a slave to the money, then you die' Kind of days. And I get home and check the e-mails and check the 'Journal' sites kept up by people who are probably far more interesting then me. And I come across a 'one liner' by J.S./alpha pirate, and it's vague.. I can tell he's having a bad day, but it's been a hell of a month so, who's to say. I put it to mind and figure I'll think about it off and on for the rest of the day, then I call Jonesy, Leave a message. She calls back almost at once. We talk briefly; the previous remark.. I take a deep breath finally talk myself into stepping away from the background wall and an IM line or two later, I'm on my way to meet JS for coffee and conversations. This last 2 hours I think. A little about this, a little about that, all and all a pretty constant flow of conversations... which unless you are Jonesy or at one point Russell, lets face it, I'm usually to cut an dry to carry on a conversation past a few lines that isn't a matter of debate. I come home, I see Jonesy sitting with my mother, like three kittens in or about her lap, and I only really get to see her for about 15 or 20 minutes, but of course I cherish it now as I did in the moment. We talk mildly about what happened, we talk about where she came from, where I just got back from and yes, laughing and teasing stands as the result. And I doubt she and I have ever spent a single moment in matters of death where a macabre joke or two isn't made, old traditions with her and I. Only way we can really express our emotions when we are around each other is through making jest and pointing out the ironies and all in a way that would offend most Normal people. It's how we laugh and cry, it's how we always have, and I'll be damned if it'll change now. I walk her out to her car, more last minute poking fun at my expenses. It's all positive of course, all the trouble I'm always in for. Then I call up DJ, my mother said he had called and communication being such a highly practiced form of art for my friends and family, of course the short time on the phone between the both of them had to leave some question marks. So I call him, I was supposed to earlier anyways, but some things, the things that I did instead, in my book are things that needed doing. And after hanging up with him, finding myself wide awake and two shots of rum - no nearly enough to effect me, it never was the rum that did me in, it was always the accomplice - walking back and forth trying to decide if I should call him back, or someone else or what. The phone rings, a 'Ello and Good Bye later and I'm out the door like a bat out of hell to meet DJ for late dinner at Dennys.. needless to say neither of us were entirely hungry. We spend the rest of the night at his place talking, listening to music... talking, talking and more talking. We both had a great deal on our minds. I tend to attract others with the same Roller Coaster life styles. Or Waves if you prefer, come to think of it I do. I get back home roughly about 5:00 am, hit the shower and choke down some breakfast while reading over the comments made yesterday on my sight... No worries Jeremiah, I'm totally fluent in drunken linguistic texts, And even though I'm sure I could have said it better my self, it would not have hold the same feel, so right on!


YEAH... SO.. that was MY day, feel free anyone and everyone to comment about it or even better about yours. I am actually very curious to see how many people actually subject them selves to this stuff. I mean it's ok, they do know me here, but If I'm not alone outside my world, then my gawd, speak up and say so.

Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out.... Wave On...