Why Me? Why Now? Why This? - Why Not?

This goes against just about everything I've ever believed in where the internet is concerned. (Keeping in mind belief and faith are two very different things) I've known many people who have done this sort of thing, and I have spent many hours reading what they've pulled from their inner-most souls and typed out and slapped on the world wide web, for all the world to see. Why would I waste time on such sites? Because it for some reason or another means something to those who take the time to create it and lord knows I'm sure I've put them through similar trials.

So that said Why am I doing This? After spending years researching Astrology (and Theology), living with a mother who's math skills surpass my own mathematical (a natural for numerology) and not to mention having a roller coaster of Tragedy and Joy for my life. I figured maybe something I'd have to say might actually bring benefit to someone else other then my self. If I'm wrong.. Well then I'll have fun in my own little world, it's ok because like the t-shirt says 'They Know Me Here'.

Why Now? I just recently lost yet another person who I held dear to me. I wont go into any details now, but trust me after the short time I spent with him, the things he showed me, the person inside me he helped me to become better acquainted with - I just can't see the sense in letting my conscious and subconscious ramblings stay just to me, my self and I. Simply seems a waste of a perfectly brilliant (good) or perfectly crazy mind. Which of the two, if for you the reader to decide.

Why Me? Now here comes a challenge; How Can I actually answer this question with out coming off as an egotistical, Self-Centered, conceited B****? Well, Here goes nothing. I've been told my entire life be people who range anywhere from Family and Friend to total Stranger that I'm usually the exception that proves the rule. A Unique soul, if they ever knew one and that hasn't always been said in a complimentary fashion. I admit, I've meet a good number of interesting people in my 20 years on earth. But until recently, I had yet to meet someone who is hands down, considered to be as unique as I am, if not far more by everyone who knows me. Recently I found that person and I lost him all to quickly. It's a bloody shame the rest of the entire world didn't get to know him, truly the majority was robbed the night he died. Now in respect for this Unique Soul, I can't send out what made him so amazing, so passionate and so creative. But I can send out what he left behind him, Me and many others like me. And if ever they wish I will send out whatever they wish for them, but for now since this is a new site I can send out me.
Well World I Hope You Are Ready.... I Hope you are interested... Or at least board enough to spend some time reading. If not, then like I said, they know me here.

Before I leave you (work has still to be done) I wish to say a few simple words (yes more):
The purpose of life is this (at least so it's been revealed to me, lets face one fact alone - it's different for everyone) To spend life living, and your mind pondering the Five questions of Faith: The difference between: Soul and Spirit, Fate and destiny. And trying to wrap your mind around 'Free Will' may waste your life away, but to arrive at answer that suits you, as in the individual you are, that answer alone is worth mountains of gold.
I've found my answers - one day I might share them with you all - until then, give it a try, it's got to be better then old sitcom reruns.