July! What A Month...

July 28th 2004 is the day that Lil' John was born, 4 months early. He weighs just under two pounds - no he's not the first in his situation, he wont be the last... but he's definitely not the run of the mill premature baby. Yesterday he had about a 30% chance. That maybe up by now, it may have slipped down. I don't know. I stopped by to see the mother, Jonesy  my best-friend... For roughly about ten years now. She's my back bone - I'm hers. When we need each other. We've never had to fight our own battles - and in a rare case if we did - it wasn't alone. I admit I'm not there for her - She's surrounded by people, her husband - parents inlaw and birth. She's taken care of, I'm here when she needs someone to laugh with in a way only our sick little minds can.
There is a divide, those who think lil'John will make it, those who are scared to death he wont. Maybe I'm optimistic - I'm worried of course - but I'm crossing my fingers, saying my prayers, but I'm breathing. I will admit today when I saw Jonesy, surrounded by her family - I went into a mental shock. I couldn't breathe. Keeping in mind I was on my way to visit my own doctor, trying to get an answer on the question keeping me up at night - am I? Am I not? Seeing her really hit me with a new kind of reality about the situation I might be walking into. I've never been happier to see her Husband by her side. She and I have never fit into each others world... They are meant to be forever. They lean on each other well.. I'm glad to know my childhood friend - my "sister" is taken care of.. I'm glad I'm not needed, I'm glad he is the reason why - Trust me before him she dated some real losers, so it was a worry.  On another note, July 28th Leo's ROCK, greatest personalities on earth. If lil' John makes it - Watch Out World - keep a sharp eye on this one, he'll go places. Allot like the March 16th Pieces.
ANYWAYS.. Please everyone - anyone who reads this, keep lil' John in your prayers. I'll try to keep you posted.

And tomorrow - I should know if I am or not. Though If I am, I'm heading out to deliver the news to the so will be if I am is the case, grandparents so you'll know either late that night or the next morning. Pray for lil' John... If there is room Pray for me... Pray for Russell's Family....

Whatever Tomorrow Brings... Spiral Out... Wave On...